• I don't want to let you go

But it hurts my hands to hold the rope I won't be such an easy mark You're no better then they say

• If you call then I'm coming to get you

You want to sink, so I'm gonna let you

• You're brought back but you're running

I'll find sleep in the end tonight I can't shake this little feeling I'll never get anything right

• Well take me, take me back to your bed

I love you so much that it hurts my head Say I don't mind you under my skin I'll let the bad parts in, the bad parts in

• She's trying not to see you as her worst mistake

And I wish that I could tell you right now (...I love you) But it looks like I won't be around So you won't know...

• My head is lead I don't want to ever go to bed
• Laid her on the bed Lie to all your friends
• And we just want sleep.

But this night is hell. I'm sick and sunk and I blame myself because I make things hard and you're just trying to help.

• So I update this almost every single day for you

I begin to hate you for your face and not just the things you do

• And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied.

I'm without you.

• I'm already dead but someone should be caught

and held responsible for this bloody mess.

• We beat each other up just like we always do.

When I'm talking to myself I'd always rather be talking to you.

• This is a lesson in procrastination.

I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.

• Do you still consider me,the boy you laughed with

or that you learned to live without?... I suck, I know I'm late, I know you waited

• It's only you, beautiful.

Or I don't want anyone. If I can choose it's only you.

• I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.
• For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
• I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed."
• Have another drink and drive yourself home.

I hope there's ice on all the roads. And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt, and again when your head goes through the windshield.

• And is that what you call tact?

You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.

• Broken down in my dead bedroom,

stuttering to pictures of you. I know that you can always see me.

• I'm sinking like a stone in the sea. I'm burning like a bridge for your body.
• Feel like every chance to leave

is another chance I should have took.

• Coordinate brain and mouth.

Then ask me whats it like to have Myself so figured out. I wish I knew..

• And keeping quiet is hard.

Cause you cant keep a secret If it never was a secret to start. At least pretend you didn't wanna get caught..

• This is the price you pay for loss of control.

This is the break in the bend, This is the closest of calls. This is the reason your alone, This is the rise and the fall.

• And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
• And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone.
• Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
• You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins.
• I will lie awake

Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you Let you fall for every empty word I say

• If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
• My lungs are fresh and yours to keep, Kept clean and they will let you breathe.
• I submit no excuse. If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
• If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.
• Need you like water in my lungs.
• Quickens your heartbeat.

It beats me straight into the ground.

• You don't recover from a night like this.

The fever, the focus. The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell. Die young and save yourself. The tickle, the taste of... It used to be the reason I breathed but now it's choking me up.

• "This is the first and last time," he says.