• when i can
• finish this list
• talk to God more
• wipe the slates clean. no one on the hate list
• learn to drive manually
• read more than 16 books
• go to vegas
• january
• celebrate court's 21st.
• february
• have a lovely valentine's day with the perfect boy
• march
• celebrate our first anniversary
• april
• see the last song, not because it looks like a good movie, but because of my unwavering miley fandom
• may
• pass my one class, and ...

• dyed my hair bright red. all of it.
• sang a hilary duff song at sarah's going away karaoke party. not so crazy for a normal person, but pretty crazy for me.
• chopped off several inches of my hair before going out, just because i was tired of it.
• tried out and wrote my first article for the school paper during my first week of college.
• sang in front of my class for a group presentation one summer in coll...

• sayonara color by super butter dog
• okaeri by ayaka
• konayuki by remioromen
• stay with me by kaoru amane
• taiyou no uta by kaoru amane
• i believe by shin seung hun
• first love by utada hikaru
• nobody by wonder girls
• because i'm a girl by kiss
• alguien soy yo by enrique iglesias
• hoppipolla by sigur ros
• glosoli by sigur ros

...when i get a job...

• buy new slippers
• buy a new jacket
• maybe a new pair of jeans, too
• get my own copy of "protecting marie" by kevin henkes
• get presents for people!
• browse ebay for jewelry
• go to vegas, win, then quit my job. just kidding.
• go to vegas, win, then put some of my winnings in my savings
• look for a new bag online
• buy some li hing mui candies
• buy a new wallet. preferably one a little more grownup...

• piano
• when the singer puts down the mic and the audience sings together
• "you've got mail." even though i don't hear it anymore, the thought of it brings back fond memories.
• crackling campfire
• the boom of the bass in a room full of dancing people
• the click-clack of high heels on a tile floor. but this can also be a sound that i could just as easily hate.
• the ocean after a long day
• the quiet "go, now, go" ...

• twilight by stephenie meyer
• protecting marie by kevin henkes
• each little bird that sings by deborah wiles
• postsecret: extraordinary confessions from ordinary lives by frank warren
• new moon by stephenie meyer
• eclipse by stephenie meyer
• clementine by sara pennypacker
• looking for alaska by john green
• honey, baby, sweetheart by deb caletti
• deep down popular by phoebe stone
• along for the ride by sarah dessen
• penn...

• go to the olive garden (oh, hawaii, why must you be so olive gardenless?)
• get phone calls from people i didn't think would remember my birthday
• make it last all week
• well, thanks to the island-wide blackout, it did last an extra day
• go to macaroni grill, since olive garden is out of the question, and draw on the table
• be with people who care about me (i'd like to think that's more than my family)
• stay o...

what's heart-wrenching is the way the second person receives (or doesn't receive) the affection of the first

• dorothy jane torkelson & riley roberts
• i just watched the second episode on youtube today, and ohmygosh, it's still just as amazing as ever
• angela chase & jordan catalano
• kevin arnold & winnie cooper
• brian krakow & angela chase
• luke danes & lorelai gilmore

because i plan to write for a living, this list should help me be sure that conditions are right

• a dark room lit only by the christmas lights strung around it
• "not a second to waste" - a rocket to the moon
• "the greatest" - cat power
• sigur ros
• the thought of driving to the north shore at night
• symphony by pam houston (sudden fiction)
• no one's a mystery by elizabeth tallent (short story)
• reading stories wri...

this list will continue to change and grow...

• Christian
• tall
• dark hair
• speaks well
• plays the piano
• but if he can't play the piano, then he'll be excellent with a guitar.
• friendly and outgoing
• nice chin/jawline.. I have a thing about chins...
• does not smoke
• drinks little to no alcohol
• not a clubby or party boy
• outgoing and friendly enough to make me feel comfortable in social situations i would probably not fe...

as of now, writer and tattoo artist are most appealing.

• veterinarian
• plastic surgeon
• interior decorator
• artist
• fashion designer
• fashion illustrator
• actress
• rock star
• writer
• baker
• bakery owner
• chef
• restaurant owner
• waitress
• journalist
• grocery store cashier/bagger
• tattoo artist
• screenwriter
• makeup artist
• songwriter

• started hanging out with mini church friends kind of a lot
• went to the beach with friends from minis, came back to a car with a stolen tire, spent a few hours with some pretty cool people
• hung out on a dock on kaneohe bay with tim w.
• stayed up to 6:30 playing rock band
• got a blackberry
• listened to "get back" by demi lovato a lot of times
• bbq/potluck at mark's house, pool at hawaiian brians, late night z...

i'm only counting the ones i've read the whole way through. most of these will be YA books.

• "are you there god? it's me, margaret" by judy blume
• "big mouth & ugly girl" by joyce carol oates
• "13 little blue envelopes" by maureen johnson
• "while you were out" by j. irvin kuns
• "flipped" by wendelin van draanen
• "bridge to terabithia" by katherine paterson
• "whale rider" by whiti ihimaera
• "island of the blue dol...

• starting work at 7:30am
• being told to keep the shelves orderly when they were just neat before the second and third graders came in
• having to clean and dust the shelf where a lot of junk seems to have accumulated over the years when i know i will end up with red itchy eyes and innumerable sneezes
• the fact that before i started working here, this was the kind of job you could do your homework at or re...

• read "escape" by carolyn jessop
• read "lock and key" by sarah dessen
• ordered more books on amazon
• read "bridge to terabithia" in summer school
• had a group presentation on "terabithia" in which i sang and attended multiple group meetings outside of class which i found enjoyable
• went to yogurtland and liked it
• started going back to church
• got two puppies, charlie and bailey
• explored blogtv.com and decided to...

some would call me a picky eater.

• beef, pork, and any other meat that isn't chicken or fish
• brownies with nuts in them
• carrots
• fritos
• pumpkin pie
• coffee
• rocky road ice cream
• milk
• sausage
• mayonnaise (unless it's in my eggsalad or tuna sandwich... but i use a negligible amount)
• vanilla yogurt
• eggnog
• beets
• bologna
• clams, oysters, opihi

• broken a bone
• eaten pumpkin pie
• been on a motorcycle
• gone skinny dipping
• drank alcohol
• driven a car that wasn't automatic
• eaten raw cookie dough (the cookie dough in the cookie dough ice cream doesn't count)
• been to disneyland (tokyo disneyland for a few hours doesn't count either)
• gone clubbing
• been arrested
• done drugs
• been married
• liked ren and stimpy
• needed to go to the emergency room
• smoked
• been to a "colleg...

i do realize i have the taste of a 12-year old.

• my so-called life
• gilmore girls
• good eats
• supernatural
• hannah montana
• degrassi: the next generation
• that's so raven
• lizzie mcguire
• law and order: svu
• the hills
• will and grace
• avatar
• phil of the future
• instant star
• l.a. ink
• the torkelsons

• tania - we warred in 6th grade, and she started calling herself "popular"
• amy - she moved to texas in 4th grade, and we still speak occasionally. if she were still here, i don't think we'd still be friends.. i think it's easier to keep some people when they're far away.
• mimi
• wendy - my longest in-person friendship. we write to each other when we're bored or have no one else to talk to. our best years...

this list is so long, it's almost embarrassing.

• spaghetti
• smashed potatoes
• the garlic chicken I made for Christmas that people liked, and that I'm kind of proud of.
• the boston cream pie strawberry cake thing they sell at Safeway
• chicken parmesan
• li hing mui candies
• chocolate chip cookies
• jambalya (sans the sausage, on the spicy side, on a cold day)
• minestrone (also on a cold day)
• pizza with spinach, tomatoe...