For my grave:

• "And for a moment, when I am dancing, I am free.” —Florence
• "Well well well, I found out I'm dying, darling. Now what do i do To keep the sunshine in? Oh I will save you. Yeah I will hold you. I'll be there when you need me, And I will die with you." —-Black Angels, Boat Song
• "Her philosophy of life, she told me, is that she might die at any moment. The tragedy, she said, was that she didn't". — Fight Club
• “And I'm learning so I'm leaving, And even though I'm grieving, I'm trying to find a meaning, Let loss reveal it.” — Florence
• “Don’t you forget about me.” - Simple Minds
• “I hope the exit is joyful and I hope never to return!” - Frida Kahlo

Neurodivergent Positives:

• Powerful radar for authenticity, dishonesty, and intuition
• Intense curiosity
• Inventive perspectives & original ideas
• Multiple creative diverse skill sets
• Adventurous
• Multiple well-versed interests
• Passionate enthusiasm
• Hard-earned resilience: navigating a world not built for their brains
• Quick witted
• Strong sense of justice and equality, fairness: People with ADHD frequently notice rules, or power dynamics being violated much faster and more acutely than neurotypical peers
• Strong sense of fairness
• Loyal fierce empathetic friends
• Spontaneous spirit to bring warmth, fun, ...

• Going through the DC Dischord House with Ian for four hours (fugazi, minor threat, …)(Ian is not remodeling the kitchen lol) plus listening to live recordings of Bad Brains (esp black dots) and his bands
• Seeing Oasis concert movie with no one else in theater with James late at night
• Standing with Justin Pearson in skinny jeans and Ian MacKaye in cargo pants —-and realizing the punk history just via their pants
• Meeting Simon Raymonde of Cocteau Twins (dinner together and dj night) and breaking down how much I love Frou Frou
• Sitting in the green room with Henry Rollins and chatting with him about Nashville
• Meeting our friend's brother who was coincidentally in a band I loved in the 90s: The Ropers

• “How you gonna win when you ain’t right within” — Lauryn Hill
• "Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun." - Alan Watts (the universe not as a severe courtroom or a heavy task, but as a cosmic drama, a dance, or a game).
• Quitting is one of the bravest things anyone can do.
• If I were the devil, I’d make algorithms that make families hate each other, that keep us outraged and victimized. I’d make sure they never showed us the real suffering and injustice in the world. Instead of algorithms that teach us how to love better, I'd create something that draws out the worst in people — their vanity, their judgment, their arrogance. And I’d make it so addictive that we’d mistake being manipulated for being informed.

• Abandoned Book Depository, Detroit
• African Party - remote office building, Paris
• Alcatraz Prison, San Francisco
• Audium, San Francisco
• Basilica Cistern --underground water palace 532bc: Istanbul, Turkey
• Bat Flight Program, Carlsbad Caverns
• Being John Grisham and David Baldacci guests at his book fair in Florida
• Berber Camp, Sahara Desert
• Berghain, exclusive club in Berlin, partied all night
• Blue Grotto, Capri Island
• Brooklyn Underground tour (old subway lines beneath the city)
• Bus Station, out in the middle of Turkey --craziest I've ever seen
• Cagaloglu Hamami Bath House, Istanbul
• Cape Cod “Touch a Truck” parade
• Carla's apartment on the Grand Canal, Ven...

I can't have authentic experiences if I post on like-based scrolling media about them. And, this is my REMINDER. The introduction of “scrolling,” and “likes,” on social media (by big tech) changed human psychology. They will NEVER stop psycho-engineering to make social media as addictive as possible. The disease is in our collective consciousness. The degradation of truth, humility, and so on. I feel it growing within myself. Unbridled capitalism's modern slavery.

THOUGHTS ON SOCIAL MEDIA:

• I do not want to pull people out of their lives to look at mine.
• Social media algorithms flatten culture and art, creating cookie cutter content that sells and pleases the algorithm (versus art being provocative).
• Not selling family. I don't want to package my family as a sellable commodity for their profit. We try to avoid peddling family for public consumption for corporate pro...

• Mamdani winning
• Underdog Jalen Brunson winning for the NY Nicks
• The tide turning for Palestinian people