• it is december this week
• i have a pair of golden ballet slippers with flowers on them and a top that reminds me of afternoon of a faun coming in the mail; also chekhov's the cherry orchard, and soon a book about czechoslovakia's velvet revolution for my history ia
• christmas eve, my favorite day of the year, is fast approaching
• i have five episodes of the pillars of the earth awaiting me
• when my friends in college come back we can see black swan together
• my best friend in new orleans will come to choir to visit me :)
• in march i go to san francisco
• in may, i GRADUATE:)

i say all this and, and yet, the maelstrom inside me rages ever stronger