This is about what I want to escape from, change or improve in my life.

• My home town. I want to leave and live somewhere beautiful, natural, and preferably coastal. I love the water. Probably need it to be content.
• My peer group. Healthy, honest, creative, successful people with ambition and compassion are who I need to surround myself with. Right now, there is a very small amount of that in my life. Not enough.
• My career. I have a good job, but I want to become a published author and screenwriter. I need that to feel accomplished and to die happy.
• I basically need to become a successful writer in order to win that prized crew of hard-working friends I desire.
• My home. One day I will have the beachfront nest I pine for so badly, and everything will be better.
• My family. Along with a beach nest comes the chance at a new family. A new neighborhood community filled with happy loving people. A happy, loving partner to spend the rest of my life with. For now, I'm stuck with the fading memories of a rocky childhood left behind by the toxic strangers who call themselves my family. Once I've left this town and made a name for myself elsewhere, I will finally be free from all that blackness. A white blank page waits.
• My love life choices. In order to properly respect myself and treat myself like an adult woman with legitimate humanity, I must date people who do those exact same things to me. No more cocky complacent schmucks with no consideration, commitment or ambition. No more irresponsible losers. No more elitist chauvinists who accessorize me, and no more underachieving snobs who accessorize me. No. More.

Things I don't want to change:

• Having my aunt and uncles family in my life.

UPDATE: I am revising this. This is not something I refuse to change. I would very much like this changed in my life!

As time has passed, I have learned many things about my relatives that have left me cold towards them. I would prefer my beautiful new life to be void of them.

• And the few friends that have stuck it out with me thus far. Who knows how long they will actually be there.