• Honesty
• Being genuine
• Warm clean and shiny
• Care
• Passion
• Intelligence
• Music

• On the 183 bus.
• My room.
• The Green Belt.
• The lake.
• In *the spot* at GRC.
• My job, register 11.
• The 320th Library.
• Daiso.
• (I'd like to also be found at a comic store, but I haven't gone back for a while)

• Someone to watch the clouds with me. I bet Sierra or Lyra would. Also Myu.
• A like for vegetables.
• A community for my art. The LGBTQ discord server a little. Then I've got various friends interested. I'd like to combine somehow.
• More places I like being present, less phone use.
• A good selfie spot in my room.

• Orange.
• Strong cleaning products.
• Bleu cheese.
• Mold.
• Overpowering perfume, esp the flowery ones.
• Food burning.
• Poop, oddly though country farming manure type smells fine.
• Dirty clothes.
• Mayonnaise (?).
• Cream cheese.

• The secret to change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old but on becoming the new - Unknown
• You have to be the energy - Monique
• I guess sometimes you can play things to safe - Sheldon
• Nothing is out there if you don't go looking. - Rei
• If you don't want to walk it, run. - Leon
• I did my best but I want my best to be better. - Rei.
• I want to live life not be dragged through it. - Rei

• Listening to music is a little advanced. Don't start with it
• Bubble chart, list out everything on your mind
• Run, pushups, lift weights, pace counting circles, get out energy
• Look at art
• Talk with friends. This may also be advanced. Maybe drop into a discord server
• Drink water. Indie reccomended cold ice water.
• Eat something. Tasty. Rusty's rec
• Take a shower.
• Draw ventart or happy art.
• Play piano? Idk if this would really work. Maybe Solas.
• Scream into a squishmallow.

• Nature
• Orcas
• Birds
• Art
• Vaping
• Electricity
• Light
• Third spaces and roads

• Trans rights not as progressed as I want
• Roads are dangerous
• People aren't as connected with eachother as they used to be
• Wildlife numbers going down
• Social media redefining friendship in a negative way
• Teachers underpaid, overworked, and leaving the field
• Rents so high, cars cost a ton, food costs more. Wages stay about the same. People can't afford kids.
• American medical costs that are overly expensive.
• How sexist and dangerous many parts of the world are.
• Quickness to judge others and 'play it cool'.

• Where there was a disease turning ppl into scaly monsters and me and Myu were rushing home together.
• Where a teacher was insistent about only typing/writing her way and doing it like that summoned a sentient defective shadow that chased you. I got scared and backed out but my friend(?) kept doing it and the shadow got stronger and I wondered what a fective shadow was.

• Webtoon binges when I want to do homework.
• Not talking with friends.
• Talking to much.
• Overvaluing those around to the point I undervalue myself.
• Some nights where I don't brush my teeth.
• Not making time for my comic.
• Setting the bar for perfection to high.
• Not doing what I want to.
• Vaping while doing homework
• Not talking with my mother.
• This over dependence on others thoughts.
• Putting off going to the bathroom.
• Living in fiction.
• Not facing difficult questions.
• Assuming negativity from others.
• Believing I need to prove something.
• Waiting for someone else to take the lead.

I am because

• Low libido
• Not interested in porn
• While having sex was more interested in pleasing partner than self
• While in a sexual situation was more interested in the grass and dirt in front of me
• I like the flag
• When thinking of partners it's about wanting them to put me first but doesn't involve sex often
• The idea of sex is weird

I am not because

• I get crushes on people
• I have sexual thoughts sometimes
• Sex feels good
• I want to have sex with more people... though it's because I want more experiences and comparison.

• Listen to music!
• Drawwww
• Talk with people:))
• Go on walks AND EXPLORING MAKES IT BETTER
• Pet dogs
• Look at other ppls art
• Read if I get motivation
• Clean low-key high-key
• Read comics
• Make stuff :) It's in and out but I've done earrings, bracelets, lil clay things, paper kabobs, stuff w monster and tabs, modify clothes
• Sometimes piano if a songs really vibey. More though I wanna have another cool thing to be cool at.
• Hangout with people, cooking together is super nice
• I don't do it for fun per se but when I do it it is fun. Outfits w a lil more effo...

• Lots of good music.
• Some tasty meals I can cook :) Sweet N Sour, Tilapia, Tuna Fish Sandwiches w Tomato Soup, Pizza Crisps.
• Beauty in rain.
• My love of art.
• Fun people to talk with.
• A tentative self respect.
• Self love.
• Cinematic moments.
• Comics I love.
• Clothes that I feel good in and also I don't need a ton.
• Enjoyment of nature.
• Cool artists.
• Places I care about, the library, the LGBTQ center discord

• Grandpa ate one snickers everyday
• He didn't want a funeral or to be buried, he wanted to donate his body to science
• He let me win at chess when we played
• He loved me and was proud of me
• He was excited for me to call him
• He wanted me to keep working hard at the things I had chosen.
• He loved math and brain puzzles, he was very smart
• He showed me an article about trans people. I never learned what it meant but it means he found it for me.
• He loved his wife very much even years after she passed.
• His birthday was Feb7.
• He mowed his own lawn til the end.
• He had dinner every week with my uncle and aunt. They would come over often. He wasn't alone.
• He was probably verbally abusive to my mo...

• The Library - This place with changing gravity, super vibrant colors, lots of geometric blocks and curves like would be in a child's playpen, paintings that you can go into.
• The Bookshop - it changes but is the same. It's incorporated dances layout, pianos layout, a skybridge, tons of bins like a bargain place. Usually I'm shoplifting something or talking to the owners.