january

• hydrojug (particularly their spring launch - blush pink)
• nesting into my apartment, wanting to hang stuff n get pictures
• mom's memory loss (sitting very heavy with me rn)
• my failed engagement (meep)
• my girl friendships!
• anxiousness and not being able to handle it as well as i have for years
• being an adult - lots of feelings about this and my emotions in general?
• how fleeting life is
• my ireland trip (though mostly anxious obsession right now)
• my 2024 kia sportage (very excited about her but also anxious)

february

• how short life is and how precious it is after getting the flu
• mom's memory loss and how fast it is
• anything colorful
• keeping miss clover clean learning how to drive her properly
• such anxiety and off putting feeling - waiting to come back into myself
• loneliness and human relationships, how complex life is, never knowing if i have made the right choice or not
• ireland and feeling terrified of going

march

• going to ireland at the end of the month
• drinking so, so much water
• birthdays i have missed of other folks
• sonder
• feeling lonesome but also booked and busy
• my job (love her)

april

• trying to be so good at my job
• mom's alzheimers, alzheimers in general
• studies on happiness and prolonged joy in life
• no contact and feeling scared

may

• turning 26
• keeping my apartment clean
• how short life is and how temporary feelings are – both the good and the bad
• sammy and his pinterest board

june

• staying hydrated
• not feeling like I am doing enough in any regard
• jericho (sweet baby boy)

july

• meeting and learning and knowing G
• apartment cleanliness
• spending time with family and friends and talking to them
• relationship with food, trying to be skinny

august

• crazy about G, writing letters
• mountain trip
• fleetingness of time
• end of summer
• trip to atlanta with gigi
• dallas cowboys cheerleaders

september

• still so crazy about G
• meeting and knowing his people and loving them instantly
• jericho and winnie
• statbucks pumpkin cream coldbrew

october

• halloween and dressing up
• teaching at cofc and prepping for presentation
• spending time with lulu
• tarot readings and writing letters
• statbucks pumpkin cream coldbrew

november

• thanksgiving
• making the *special* peanut butter cookies
• wearing my favorite favorite long trench coat
• feeling guilt over dad and not seeing him

december

• dad's funeral and planning
• christmas nightmare shopping and wrapping and planning
• trying to not feel like a victim