• https://www.liveeatlearn.com/silken-tofu...
• https://www.instagram.com/reel/C2P_z9gqJ...
• https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8vRmsbD/

• rosy maple moth
  • saw it on move in day
  • i WISH id gotten a pic i swear thats what it was
• grasshopper(s)
  • how are they getting up there......
• marbled orb weaver spider
  • kind of looked like a pumpkin spider but i dont think thats right
  • took up half my porch for like two weeks

january

• soup dumplings
• mint tea
• panera sip club

march

• scratch offs
• getting cheap services done (facials, massages, teeth cleaning!!)

april

• pikmin bloom
• taking whats not yours-tv girl

may

• chappell roan
• hinge dates :(

july

• wet dream-wet leg
• hudson unfortunately lol

• listen to a tom petty song
• every time you pass by yourself in the mirror look at yourself and tell yourself you are a GIFT!! (this was around christmastime)
• balance an egg on the spring equinox (march 19 at 11:06)
• take a walk, find a leaf that you find beautiful and admire it. think of one thing to make you fall in love with yourself

january

• The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
• How to Be Eaten by Maria Adelmann

february

• Bird by Angela Johnson
• Thistlefoot by GennaRose Nethercott

march

• A Lady's Guide to Fortune-Hunting by Sophie Irwin

april

• Check & Mate by Ali Hazelwood
• Animal by Lisa Taddeo

may

• Life in a Fishbowl by Len Vlahos
• Motherthing by Ainslie Hogarth
• Heather, the Totality by Matthew Weiner

july

• clothesline
• big covered porch. preferably a wraparound
• brick houses are really sturdy and nice. and i luv painted brick
• stained glass!?!
• hardwood floors
• built in floor to ceiling bookshelf. pref as an accent wall/around a doorway/along the stairs
• window seat
• iridescent tiles in the bathroom
• moss or clover yard
• butcher block countertops
• or maybe tile countertops if they're a pretty color
• kit cat clock
• a bookshelf bed would be sooo cool..probably in a guest room if im married or whatever though
• reglazed bathtub so its a pretty pop of c...

muliebrity

• if you’re raised with an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house. you will find him even when he is not there. and if one day you find that there is no angry man in your house—well, you will go find one and invite him in!

what you missed that day you were absent...

the invitation

• it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in this broken world

what the living do

the orange

• i love you. i'm glad i exist.

insomnia

• cottage cheese
• sauerkraut
• applesauce
• hard boiled eggs
• carrot salad or tomato/cucumber salads
• plain greek yogurt with fruit and honey
• dolmas
• dates stuffed with goat cheese. or peanut butter and chocolate

• old neon car keys
• lavender victoria's secret panties i got to wear ONCE
• gold herringbone chain
• little gold m pendant necklace (that I've since replaced)
• apple pencil (lost to the void of the florida house)
• my og house key
• my plush patchwork jacket that went missing like a MONTH after buying from thredup
• astronaut tote maureen bought me
• $50 target gift card i bought bridget for christmas

things found since writing this list:

• ripndip t shirt
• burgandy v neck shirt
• NOT found but maureen bought me a replacement astronaut tote <3

• Preeny Has To Repeat 6th Grade
• Ava’s Demon
• The Dog Star
• Colorless
• Witchy
• Pinepaw and the Forgotten World
• What Lurks Beneath
• Roommates
• Waves Always Crash
• I Didn't Know

• deep purple/mustard yellow
• pink/yellow/blue
• red/teal
• slime green/purple
• navy/yellow
• magenta/chartreuse

• romance is boring-los campesinos
• hold on now, youngster-los campesinos
• touch up-mother mother
• o my heart-mother mother
• the sticks-mother mother
• take this to your grave-fall out boy
• from under the cork tree-fall out boy (mine's scratched)
• ribbed music for the numb generation-sohodolls
• be the cowboy-mitski
• riot!-paramore
• dying is your latest passion-escape the fate
• make room-destroy boys
• any bowling for soup album before 2004
• any nofx album before 2006
• you'll rebel to anything-mindless self indulgence
• if-mindless self indulgence
• anything from streetlight manifesto

books:

• howl's moving castle

movies:

• rocky horror picture show
• easy a
• gone girl
• the iron giant

bands:

• los campesinos!
• the fratellis

smells:

• tomato plants in the summer
• versace crystal noir
• beeswax candles

foods:

• soft pretzels
• lemon bars

• thai tea party drink
• wild rice and mushroom soup
• no bake cookies
• the bakery's chocolate chip banana bread
• fig mostarda

• welcome to night vale (never finished)
• adventure zone (never finished)
• the magnus archives
• the hotel
• mabel
• the penumbra podcast
• normal gossip

• lady gaga
• margot robbie
• matthew lillard
• natasha lyonne
• joe pera

• burrata
• anything with truffle
• lobster
• lavender lattes :(
• samyang fire noodles
• elderflower
• tequila

• tech
  • best buy
  • free it athens
  • lots of local resources for this!
• bras/underwear/socks
  • subset
• plastic bags/film
  • target allegedly has a drop off location
• medication
  • cvs and some other pharmacies have drop off locations
• local to me only but charm takes almost everything

• bon de paris
• metro diner
• tiger sushi
• taco stand
• peppinos
• birdies
• emmy squared
• mitti
• mannaweenta

• wolfgang
• shari
• kid cat

• mirin
• soy sauce
• garlic
• lemon juice
• gochugaru
• miso?
• sesame oil?
• oyster sauce?
• chili garlic sauce?

january

• read a real physical book
• walk every single day (3/31)
• ✓drink way more water
• play with makeup a little bit
• take a photobooth photo
• ✓go see the boy and the heron in theaters

february

• walk every single day (10/29)
• ✓try gel polish again
• draw draw draw
• no using credit cards all month!!
• ✓try new valentine's drink from molly's!!
• ✓drink even more water! i only did okay last month
• ✓make at least $50 on prolific (made $85.91!!)

march

• im gonna be (500 miles) by the proclaimers (kevin)
• hooked on a feeling by blue swede (bill)
• got my mind set on you by george harrison (charles)

• french toast (4/10)
  • didn't really need a recipe but whatever! please do not soak your bread overnight next time. not yummy
• pepper grinder salad (6/10)
  • girl follow the recipe next time its there for a reason :| needed better pepperoncinis and more roasted red peppers but overall satisfying!
• creamy crab dip (5/10)
• chicken alfredo (8/10)

january

• the boy and the heron

april

• lisa frankenstein
• bridget jones's diary
• bridget jones: the edge of reason
• bridget jones's baby

may

• the dallas buyers club
• poor things

june

• shrek
• shrek 2
• shrek the third
• shrek forever after
• puss in boots: the last wish
• bottoms
• saltburn

• japan
• hong kong
• paris, france
• salerno, italy
• rome, italy
• thailand
• salem, ma
• portland, or
• montana

• buffalo chicken bell pepper boats
• brie grilled cheese
• french onion soup
• harissa simmered eggplant
• sweet potato chowder
• creamy french onion soup
• skillet pesto artichoke gnocchi
• thai basil w/ eggplant
• vegan tortellini soup
• creamy tomato and chorizo rigatoni
• quinoa pancakes
• tuscan sausage and potato soup
• chickpea and tomato curry soup
• sweet potato soup with lentils and kale
• asian caramel slow cooker pulled pork
• brown butter honey and pistachio cookie ...
• tortellini soup with cashew cream
• creamy veggie ramen noodles
• love letter pastries
• zucchini cheese bread
• herbed veggie pot pie

• black calvin klein bralette (fabric ripping away from the band)
• silk lounge shorts (will have to be taken in somewhere)
• green 70s halter dress (hole near zipper)
• ae baggy jeans (needs fabric sewn under rips in pocket holes)
• hellraisers (needs new soles)
• orange corduroy pants (replace the button)
• mixed fabric peasant skirt (hole in between tiers)
• brown reformation corduroys (need to be re-dyed)
• cropped white button up (needs stain removed, maybe dyed)
• brown polka dot trousers (hole near the zipper)
• pink plaid trousers (need a little heart button)

• staffordshire dogs above my elbows
• big snarly wolf dog (maybe my sona) on my thigh!
• lil words on my sideboob. "pet body" and "oops!" were past contenders
• kero and suppi
• a lil crying second place greyhound
• dixie
• def want a pinup girl on the back of my thigh. not sure what theme yet
• botan rice candy box

• castle in the sky (1986)
• grave of the fireflies (1988)
• my neighbor totoro (1988)
• kiki's delivery service (1989)
• only yesterday (1991)
• porco rosso (1992)
• ocean waves (1993)
• pom poko (1994)
• whisper of the heart (1995)
• princess mononoke (1997)
• my neighbors the yamadas (1999)
• spirited away (2001)
• the cat returns (2002)
• howl's moving castle (2004)
• tales from earthsea (2006)
• ponyo (2008)
• arrietty (2010)
• from up on poppy hill (2011)
• the wind rises (2013)
• the tale of the princess kaguya (2013)
• when marnie was there (2014)

• Becky Martini
• Virgil Strange
• Mimi Mamaus
• Tolan Barnes
• Lone Howell

• zinnias
  • queen lime zinnias are especially gorgeous
• sunflowers
• celosia
• queen anne's lace
• marigolds
• ranunculus
• anemone
• craspedia
• chinese lantern lily

• facey talk
• cafe
• double babysitter
• pass the parcel
• fancy restaurant
• tradies

• gas stations
• weird flavor chocolate bars
• using coupons at cvs (it makes me feel like a god)
• the plinky sound when you pour your coins into a coinstar kiosk
• sticker machines
• "church announcements" episode of joe pera
• the snap when you put a straw in your boba cup
• when people say "look at the moon"
• eating cake for breakfast the day after a party or date or whatever
• christmas popcorn tins
• $5 sushi days at grocery stores
• when couples unintentionally (and intentionally!) match
• finding notes and bits of paper in used books
• falling asleep to heavy rain

• magenta from rocky horror
• cruella deville
• couple from beetlejuice
• sexy sheet ghost
• space girl
• pinup garfield

• red dye 40
• the grocery store

• panini
• burger (for cats ONLY im channeling uncle kevin)
• dolly (parton)
• suppi
• queenie
• lemmy
• josie
• olive
• mitski
• stevie
• mister president
• qt
• trinket
• soy sauce

• an order from mischief made
• commodity gold

• ✓watch new beetlejuice in theaters
• cemetery walk
• ✓carve pumpkins
• ✓try all the fun halloween fast food stuff
• ✓paint candy corn nails!!
• make a really good soup

• Atlanta, GA jan 1 for nye
  • o-ku
• Greenville, SC jan 2
  • antonio bertolo's pizza
  • children's museum of the upstate
  • world market + whole foods lol
• Duluth, GA jan 21
  • teso life
  • hai chinese (had to drive to alpharetta for this one cause i messed up the locations LOL)
• Atlanta, GA feb 19
  • atlanta zoo baybee!!
  • also lidl
• Charlotte, SC march 3-5
  • mau's new house <3

• connie and chris. old couple that comes on saturdays and they dont like their bread in bags!!!
• calloway. a pretty new customer idk how im gonna remember her
• mike. redhead guy with beard that i dont remember but he remembers me
• steve. skinny olive skinned guy with big ears and glasses. always has this like pleasant but secret smile and easy to talk to
• ben. alec's evil twin
• claire. brunette w curly..ish hair and works at m3
• dave. old white haired guy who gets multigrain not sliced!!!!
• zachary. long black hair and beard. looks like his name should be skunk or something
• robert. generic older white guy with glasses and a thin face. every time i see him...

• consume more, and with purpose
  • prioritize books and other media that excite you and you plan to enjoy!
  • give them your full focus when consuming, no scrolling or too much multitasking (audiobooks don't count obviously)
• walk at least 5k steps every day, though the goal is 10k
• be more receptive to loved ones
• to parallel the consumption, create more!
  • it can be anything! tiktoks, writing in a diary, art, playing with makeup, diy
  • i want to get rid of idle, sad time i use for napping and starting at my phone

• nyt connections archive

• red cowboy boots
• white boots
• carpenter jeans
• black linen pants
• littlest pet shops
• vintage linens/nice bedsheets
• cool cds
• guess who board game
• some squat dark green pillar candles
• printer/letterpress drawer
• high waist baggy jeans
• vintage ball jars with pretty lids
• lenox village canister collection (flour, sugar, rice)
• cool charms/pendants
• happy bunny
• cool cd player (dream is sony cmt-ex1)
• big floppy sunhat
• bike shorts
• silk tap shorts
• bandanas to use for diy UNDER $1

• riding bikes for sport
• snapchat users
• men with "Bill" in their name
• ppl who don't ask you questions about yourself
• fave food is mexican
• magic the gathering players are on THIN ice
• referring to women as “females”
• being rude to employees/being loud about how displeased they are at inconveniences in public
• if i have to repeat myself more than once? game over
• sitting beside you at restaurants instead of in front of you
• believing that men have "primal urges" that can't be controlled. especially over sex
• if they don't make room on the sidewalk for other people when u walk by

• eleanor stern’s reading list
  • florida gothic
  • the loudproof room by kate lebo
  • windeye by brian evanson
  • sasquatch at the end of the world
  • poems by cecelia knapp
  • on the cult of craftism
  • in praise of cravings (or, how to eat a poem) by amy key
• the white review fiction archive
  • tinderloin
• woodtangle
• sarahland
• i threw an effigy-burning bonfire for my...
• the pain gap
• jackalope wives

• appalachai-(9/10) god tier. still a little too sweet for my tastes but i will persevere
• oregon chai (spicy)-(7.5/10) it's the best grocery store option at the moment and very satisfying
• oregon chai (regular)-(6/10) just not as good.
• tazo chai-(5/10) it's fine if you like normie stuff
• rishi masala chai-(1/10) this shit was created by the devil himself. sooo disappointed by that i expected more from u rishi
• trader joes spiced chai-(6/10) almost like...creamy somehow. wish it were spicier

• sofubi and vinyl art toys (specifically monster cats)
• pokemon cards
• anthro fashion dolls
• nail polish
• rocks and crystals

one day i will collect!!

• camphor glass rings
• vintage Halloween blow molds

• andy dwyer (parks and rec)
• nick miller (new girl)
• raggedy andy (1977 raggedy ann movie)
• reigen arataka (mob psycho)
• professor venomous (ok ko!)
• howl (howl's moving castle)
• grunkle stan (gravity falls)
• mr. wolf (the bad guys)
• diane foxington (the bad guys)
• mike melsky (joe pera)
• syndrome (the incredibles)
• jack spicer (xiaolin showdown) (when i was a kid OK)
• haida (aggretsuko)
• mad mod (teen titans)
• melon (beastars)
• karamatsu (osomatsu-san)
• murdoc (gorillaz)

• latte art
• taking walks
• drawing (mostly furries)
• falling asleep fast
• reading fast (when focused)
• nail art
• being nice to strangers

• dog tee
• headphones
• temu order

feminine:

• ginette - "white phantom"
• prunelle - french - "little plum"
• junia
• idra - aramaic - "fig tree"
• aveline - french - "hazelnut tree"
• helah - hebrew - "rust"
• kielo
• irie - finnish - "lily of the valley"
• morrigan - "phantom queen?"
• mairenn - "fair sea"
• alodia
• colette
• odeletta - french - "little spring"
• eumelia - "melody"
• cerelia
• ostara
• laverna - french - "born in spring"
• amabel - latin - "lovable"
• iwona - polish - "yew"
• eloa - brazilian - "goddess"