• slap someone in the face really hard
• wear more red part 2. wanna bring back my weird girl wardrobe also
• travel outside of the country

january

• bake myself a birthday cake
• watch 13 going on 30
• clean my room
• get more flexible! get back into yoga and walking daily
• take care of all unpaid bills

february

• do a cartwheel
• get new glasses

• herbal
• astringent
• earthy
• acidic
• mineral
• tart

january

• stardew valley
• any and all kinds of pickles

february

• those damn gummies
• hey hey honey-owie zowie

march

• cookie run kingdom....
• of montreal
• picky pad

april

• tinned fish....mostly just the idea of it
• city cook-caravan palace
• buzzballs

may

• soon veggie noodles

• listen to a tom petty song
• every time you pass by yourself in the mirror look at yourself and tell yourself you are a GIFT!! (this was around christmastime)
• balance an egg on the spring equinox (march 19 at 11:06)
• take a walk, find a leaf that you find beautiful and admire it. think of one thing to make you fall in love with yourself

• clothesline
• big covered porch. preferably a wraparound
• brick houses are really sturdy and nice. and i luv painted brick
• stained glass!?!
• hardwood floors
• built in floor to ceiling bookshelf. pref as an accent wall/around a doorway/along the stairs
• window seat
• iridescent tiles in the bathroom
• moss or clover yard
• butcher block countertops
• or maybe tile countertops if they're a pretty color
• kit cat clock
• a bookshelf bed would be sooo cool..probably in a guest room if im married or whatever though
• reglazed bathtub so its a pretty pop of c...

muliebrity

• if you’re raised with an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house. you will find him even when he is not there. and if one day you find that there is no angry man in your house—well, you will go find one and invite him in!

what you missed that day you were absent...

the invitation

• it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in this broken world

what the living do

the orange

• i love you. i'm glad i exist.

insomnia

• cottage cheese
• sauerkraut
• applesauce
• hard boiled eggs
• carrot salad or tomato/cucumber salads
• plain greek yogurt with fruit and honey
• dolmas
• dates stuffed with goat cheese. or peanut butter and chocolate
• chicken sausage (YES as a snack whatever)
• tuna salad

books:

• howl's moving castle

movies:

• rocky horror picture show
• easy a
• gone girl
• the iron giant

bands:

• los campesinos!
• the fratellis

smells:

• tomato plants in the summer
• burnt sugar
• beeswax candles

foods:

• soft pretzels
• lemon bars

• old neon car keys
• lavender victoria's secret panties i got to wear ONCE
• gold herringbone chain
• little gold m pendant necklace (that I've since replaced)
• my og house key
• my plush patchwork jacket that went missing like a MONTH after buying from thredup
• astronaut tote maureen bought me
• $50 target gift card i bought bridget for christmas
• bottle of jo malone sea salt & wood sage i took from katie's room

things found since writing this list:

• ripndip t shirt
• burgandy v neck shirt
• NOT found but maureen bought me a replacement astronaut tote <3

• Preeny Has To Repeat 6th Grade
• Ava’s Demon
• Colorless
• Best Friends Forever
• Witchy
• What Lurks Beneath
• Roommates
• Waves Always Crash
• I Didn't Know
• Jumalanpelko
• Ophidia

finished:

• Pinepaw and the Forgotten World
• The Dog Star

• deep purple/mustard yellow
• pink/yellow/blue
• red/teal
• slime green/purple
• navy/yellow
• magenta/chartreuse

• romance is boring-los campesinos
• hold on now, youngster-los campesinos
• touch up-mother mother
• o my heart-mother mother
• the sticks-mother mother
• take this to your grave-fall out boy
• from under the cork tree-fall out boy (mine's scratched)
• ribbed music for the numb generation-sohodolls
• be the cowboy-mitski
• riot!-paramore
• dying is your latest passion-escape the fate
• make room-destroy boys
• any bowling for soup album before 2004
• any nofx album before 2006
• you'll rebel to anything-mindless self indulgence
• if-mindless self indulgence
• anything from streetlight manifesto

• thai tea party drink
• wild rice and mushroom soup
• no bake cookies
• the bakery's chocolate chip banana bread
• fig mostarda

• welcome to night vale (never finished)
• adventure zone (never finished)
• the magnus archives
• the hotel
• mabel
• the penumbra podcast
• normal gossip

• lady gaga
• margot robbie
• matthew lillard
• natasha lyonne
• joe pera

• burrata
• anything with truffle
• lobster
• lavender lattes :(
• samyang fire noodles
• elderflower
• tequila
• fresh figs
• green bell peppers specifically

• tech
  • best buy
  • free it athens
  • lots of local resources for this!
• bras/underwear/socks
  • subset
• plastic bags/film
  • target allegedly has a drop off location
• medication
  • cvs and some other pharmacies have drop off locations
• local to me only but charm takes almost everything

• Miami, FL (dec 31-jan 2)
  • ball & chain our baby.....
  • motek
  • museum of sex

books

• lonely castle in the mirror
• witch hat atelier

movies

• dead poets society
• monster house

shows

• wednesday
• twin peaks
• x-files

1990

• my first home. it was all mine
• so much natural light, especially in the bedroom
• the backyard. so many picnics there
• my comfy purple sofa
• the tiles on the ceiling that were probably asbestos
• the BEST location i miss being able to just walk out my door and take a walk. and being no more than 15 minutes from everything
• the orange sink
• the flowers in the yard! snowbells in the winter, daffodils in the spring, honeysuckle in the summer
• the bathroom was so teeny i loved putting my feet on the side of the tub while in there. the perfect squatty potty lmao

the apartment

• Becky Martini
• Virgil Strange
• Mimi Mamaus
• Tolan Barnes
• Lone Howell

• wolfgang
• shari
• kid cat

• mirin
• soy sauce
• garlic
• lemon juice
• gochugaru
• miso?
• sesame oil?
• oyster sauce?
• chili garlic sauce?

• im gonna be (500 miles) by the proclaimers (kevin)
• hooked on a feeling by blue swede (bill)
• got my mind set on you by george harrison (charles)

• japan
• hong kong
• paris, france
• salerno, italy
• rome, italy
• thailand
• iceland
• salem, ma
• portland, or
• montana
• istanbul, turkey

• buffalo chicken bell pepper boats
• brie grilled cheese
• french onion soup
• harissa simmered eggplant
• sweet potato chowder
• creamy french onion soup
• skillet pesto artichoke gnocchi
• thai basil w/ eggplant
• vegan tortellini soup
• creamy tomato and chorizo rigatoni
• quinoa pancakes
• tuscan sausage and potato soup
• chickpea and tomato curry soup
• sweet potato soup with lentils and kale
• asian caramel slow cooker pulled pork
• brown butter honey and pistachio cookie ...
• tortellini soup with cashew cream
• creamy veggie ramen noodles
• love letter pastries
• zucchini cheese bread
• herbed veggie pot pie

• black calvin klein bralette (fabric ripping away from the band)
• silk lounge shorts (will have to be taken in somewhere)
• green 70s halter dress (hole near zipper)
• ae baggy jeans (needs fabric sewn under rips in pocket holes)
• hellraisers (needs new soles)
• orange corduroy pants (replace the button)
• mixed fabric peasant skirt (hole in between tiers)
• cropped white button up (needs stain removed, maybe dyed)
• brown polka dot trousers (hole near the zipper)
• pink plaid trousers (need a little heart button)
• levis shorts (hole on ass)
• orange paisley babydoll dress (hole betwe...

• staffordshire dogs above my elbows
• big snarly wolf dog (maybe my sona) on my thigh!
• lil words on my sideboob. "pet body" and "oops!" were past contenders
• kero and suppi
• a lil crying second place greyhound
• dixie
• def want a pinup girl on the back of my thigh. not sure what theme yet
• botan rice candy box
• paper stars
• fish jug

• facey talk
• cafe
• double babysitter
• pass the parcel
• fancy restaurant
• tradies

• castle in the sky (1986)
• grave of the fireflies (1988)
• my neighbor totoro (1988)
• kiki's delivery service (1989)
• only yesterday (1991)
• porco rosso (1992)
• ocean waves (1993)
• pom poko (1994)
• whisper of the heart (1995)
• princess mononoke (1997)
• my neighbors the yamadas (1999)
• spirited away (2001)
• the cat returns (2002)
• howl's moving castle (2004)
• tales from earthsea (2006)
• ponyo (2008)
• arrietty (2010)
• from up on poppy hill (2011)
• the wind rises (2013)
• the tale of the princess kaguya (2013)
• when marnie was there (2014)

• zinnias
  • queen lime zinnias are especially gorgeous
• sunflowers
• celosia
• queen anne's lace
• marigolds
• ranunculus
• anemone
• craspedia
• chinese lantern lily

• gas stations
• weird flavor chocolate bars
• using coupons at cvs (it makes me feel like a god)
• the plinky sound when you pour your coins into a coinstar kiosk
• sticker machines
• "church announcements" episode of joe pera
• the snap when you put a straw in your boba cup
• when people say "look at the moon"
• eating cake for breakfast the day after a party or date or whatever
• christmas popcorn tins
• $5 sushi days at grocery stores
• when couples unintentionally (and intentionally!) match
• finding notes and bits of paper in used books
• falling asleep to heavy rain

• mario kart double dash!! (gamecube)
• warioware inc (gamecube)
• animal crossing (gamecube)
• eternal darkness: sanity's requiem (gamecube)
• loz: twilight princess (gamecube)
• silent hill 2 (xbox)
• chulip (ps2)
• ghost trick (ds)
• 999 (ds)
• ever oasis (3ds)

• magenta from rocky horror
• cruella deville
• couple from beetlejuice
• sexy sheet ghost
• space girl
• pinup garfield
• toni and candace from portlandia

• red dye 40
• the grocery store
• bring unmedicated

• panini
• burger (for cats ONLY im channeling uncle kevin)
• dolly (parton)
• suppi
• queenie
• lemmy
• josie
• olive
• mitski
• stevie
• mister president
• qt
• trinket
• soy sauce
• salty

• make cookies
• watch girls
• nye in miami!!
• make candied cranberries
• see some christmas lights

• midnight muse
• cutie heart n stars
• kinks and thrills but i found a cheaper version
• sisters of the moon
• these or these huggie hoops
• 60mm hoops

• an order from mischief made
• cute silk pillowcases
• lush sex bomb body spray
• a town called collegeville
• snotgirl vol 4
• almond dr bronners (after i use up my current soap)
• renographics sticker club
• maggie button
• idog bjd

• riding bikes for sport
• snapchat users
• men with "Bill" in their name
• ppl who don't ask you questions about yourself
• fave food is mexican
• magic the gathering players are on THIN ice
• referring to women as “females”
• being rude to employees/being loud about how displeased they are at inconveniences in public
• if i have to repeat myself more than once? game over
• sitting beside you at restaurants instead of in front of you
• believing that men have "primal urges" that can't be controlled. especially over sex
• if they don't make room on the sidewalk for other people when u walk by

• button museum

• pina colada (10/10) holy grail of all buzzball flavors
• nookie cookie (8/10) so sweet and like drinking a candle in the best way
• berry cherry limeade (5/10) like drinking gatorade
• peach chiller (2/10) too syrupy and u can TASTE that alcohol
• choco chiller (7/10) like drinking evil chocolate milk
• lime'rita chiller (4/10) SOURRR and i don't like lime
• espresso martini (5/10) tastes like coffee thats been sitting out
• sour apple chiller (1/10) poison

• red cowboy boots
• white boots
• carpenter jeans
• black linen pants
• littlest pet shops
• vintage linens/nice bedsheets
• cool cds
• guess who board game
• some squat dark green pillar candles
• printer/letterpress drawer
• high waist baggy jeans
• vintage ball jars with pretty lids
• lenox village canister collection (flour, sugar, rice)
• cool charms/pendants
• happy bunny
• cool cd player (dream is sony cmt-ex1)
• big floppy sunhat
• bike shorts
• silk tap shorts
• bandanas to use for diy UNDER $1

• eleanor stern’s reading list
  • florida gothic
  • the loudproof room by kate lebo
  • windeye by brian evanson
  • sasquatch at the end of the world
  • poems by cecelia knapp
  • on the cult of craftism
  • in praise of cravings (or, how to eat a poem) by amy key
• the white review fiction archive
  • tinderloin
• woodtangle
• sarahland
• i threw an effigy-burning bonfire for my...
• the pain gap
• jackalope wives

• appalachai-(9/10) god tier. still a little too sweet for my tastes but i will persevere
• firepot masala chai-(8/10) GREAT spice level but loses points for insane price
• oregon chai (spicy)-(7.5/10) it's the best grocery store option at the moment and very satisfying
• oregon chai (regular)-(6/10) just not as good.
• trader joes spiced chai-(6/10) almost like...creamy somehow. wish it were spicier
• tazo chai-(5/10) it's fine if you like normie stuff
• rishi masala chai-(1/10) this shit was created by the devil himself. sooo disappointed by that i expected more from u rishi

• sofubi and vinyl art toys (specifically monster cats)
• pokemon cards
• anthro fashion dolls
• nail polish
• rocks and crystals
• solar powered waving lucky cats

one day i will collect!!

• camphor glass rings
• vintage Halloween blow molds

• andy dwyer (parks and rec)
• nick miller (new girl)
• raggedy andy (1977 raggedy ann movie)
• reigen arataka (mob psycho)
• professor venomous (ok ko!)
• howl (howl's moving castle)
• grunkle stan (gravity falls)
• mr. wolf (the bad guys)
• diane foxington (the bad guys)
• mike melsky (joe pera)
• syndrome (the incredibles)
• jack spicer (xiaolin showdown) (when i was a kid OK)
• haida (aggretsuko)
• mad mod (teen titans)
• melon (beastars)
• karamatsu (osomatsu-san)
• murdoc (gorillaz)

• white halter top
• lazy oaf dress
• ritual multivitamins

• latte art
• taking walks
• drawing (mostly furries)
• falling asleep fast
• reading fast (when focused)
• nail art
• being nice to strangers
• removing stains from clothes

feminine:

• ginette - "white phantom"
• prunelle - french - "little plum"
• junia
• idra - aramaic - "fig tree"
• aveline - french - "hazelnut tree"
• helah - hebrew - "rust"
• kielo
• irie - finnish - "lily of the valley"
• morrigan - "phantom queen?"
• mairenn - "fair sea"
• alodia
• colette
• odeletta - french - "little spring"
• eumelia - "melody"
• cerelia
• ostara
• laverna - french - "born in spring"
• amabel - latin - "lovable"
• iwona - polish - "yew"
• eloa - brazilian - "goddess"