February 18

• loved planning yesterday around lunar new year
• spent hours doing pen pals last night
• gunch is growing on me
• have freedom to rest when starting morning with a migraine

january

• dream board on pinterest
• hotpot
• making my apartment cute

february

• being so pretty (makeup, hair)
• my bangs (only for a second)
• winnie's cough

march

• st patrick's day with mau
• being in love
• dinners out and about in greenville

april

• aj
• hiking
• being skinny

may

dec 10

• i slept through the whole night and didn't wake up once
• my pothos at work is thriving and has so many new vines
• after angel gift and being with dad, my life feels more beautiful

dec 11

• loving winnie's new cat litter called 'hardball' it's so good
• get to see maureen this saturday
• i slept through the night well and hard
• my vacuum is bringing me so much joy, i need to use her more

dec 12

• getting so much better at builder gel!!
• the mountains on my drive to work are beautiful and bring me so much joy each day
• today *feels* happy and good and exciting...

January

• keeping the apartment clean and tidy, building cat tower, reorganizing
• dancing more, moving my body as much as i can
• writing more in penzu, creatively for contests
• pinterest, though i always love her. and recipes from there (the dutch oven chicken for G!)
• drinking hot tea first thing in the morning

February

• concerts (Duunes, Eli Young Band, Vince Gill)
• personal growth and rewiring neural pathways/reframing my thoughts
• trying new nespresso pods
• low sugar cocoa cream of wheat for breakfast

• princess petrol provisions (gas station for girls, olli pop or poppi slushies, healthy food to go)
• makeup brand (but with silly names for things, like 'ghastly young boy from 1800s' as a foundation shade name)
• designing clothes that are very girly or profession inspired, like how country music folks wore outfits with music notes and guitars, maybe an attorney has a gavel on theirs, or someone in PR has newspaper on theirs, you know?

• cara's divine orzo salad
• chicken salad (with the greek yogurt and poultry seasoning blend) and crackers, cucumbers
• burger patties with zucchini, cottage cheese
• dense bean salad from TT
• heirloom tomatoes!!

january

• hydrojug (particularly their spring launch - blush pink)
• nesting into my apartment, wanting to hang stuff n get pictures
• mom's memory loss (sitting very heavy with me rn)
• my failed engagement (meep)
• my girl friendships!
• anxiousness and not being able to handle it as well as i have for years
• being an adult - lots of feelings about this and my emotions in general?
• how fleeting life is
• my ireland trip (though mostly anxious obsession right now)
• my 2024 kia sportage (very excited about her but also anxious)

february

• how short life is and how precious it is ...

• you have good ideas and what you have to say is important. people want to hear your thoughts
• you are beautiful inside and outside. people enjoy being in your presence
• you are capable of happiness constantly
• you are in charge of your mindset
• stay present

jan 2025 - 3 to the 8, i think i had norovirus (i threw up a whole bunch, very upset tummy, fever, chills n could not stop shivering)

feb 2025 - 3(ish) to the 8, i had the flu (had a tickly throat on the 3rd which quickly progressed into a cough and fatigue, went to urgent care morning of the 4th and could not stop coughing, awful fever, chills, migraine-level, agonizing headache, intense spinal pain, chills, extreme exhaustion, raw throat from coughing, absolutely no appetite, horrible. second sickest i have been in my life)

2024

• Ichigo Ichie
• ACOTAR
• ACOMAF
• Hail Mary Project
• Love Does

2025

• A Little Life
• Daisy Jones and The Six
• Brave New World
• Smart Brevity

• a weenie bit older!
• glam red lip
• get so many hotdogs from sams club (ketchup, mustard, relish, chili)
• this gingham paper plate set
• cute cake that says a weenie bit older
• dollar tree decor from ceiling

• after being virtual for 3 years, when you went on your first work trip, he downloaded bumble, tinder, and hinge and met up with another woman to try and sleep with her. when he couldn't get it up, he told you he thought he was impotent and asked for oral, when you hadn't slept. every time he went on work trips, you cleaned the house, got him gifts, prepared food, and cried for having missed him so badly. you even got a tattoo for him while he was away, you missed him so much.
• instead of telling you this, he told you he wasn't in love with you and to move home with your mom, despite his home being one he said was "ours." you found out he met with another woman based on texts from his apple watch. he called you his "ex" and said you came back to "his house" to the woman he tried to sleep with, he told her to be careful who she coupled up wi...