i know i'm not feeling much because I rarely cry. It's not enough to make me cry. I hate that it's so easy to change my mindset and that I can just my actions tomorrow but I'm just saying 'fuck that' right now. There's a million things I can do to make myself better but I'm not doing any of those. Now I'm just confused, and it;s no longer a heavy sensation in my chest. It just feels suffocating now.

I really don't want tomorrow to come. It's not enough to kill me though. I'm just dreading everyday now. Why does the journey seem so fucking long> I'm so sick and fucking tired of everything, and it fucking sucks that I;m not even going through much.