i hate myself for doing this i hate myself for simply existing I hate myself for simply doing this why am I the way I am why the fuck do I think this way why the fuck will I not change why the fuck am I so pathetic why the fuck am I like this? Fuck fuck fuck fuck I just hate. Yea, I hate. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate. What? Nothing? hah. haha. atp I'm just being stupid. i just don't want to go sleep. i don't want to get comfort. i don't want anything. i don't even wanna look at my phone. no song hits the same. everything feels so much like a blur. what am I doing? How did I get here? why did time pass by so fast? why do I consume media like a dead fish? lol