I have no fucking guts to kill myself. that means I still wanna live but really? I mean I guess I wanna live so I can watch r rated movies in the theatres with my friends. or drink alcohol and try smoke a cigarette, or travel. but those are all the good stuff. I can't imagine how long it'll take.

nightcore lowkey hitting rn

stop I'm so fucking stupid just shutup

stopp I'm so goofy for saying how much I hate myself when I can be doing something to be improving my mindset. But nah. And yes sure I'll be pathetic since I have 0 respect for myself anyways. I'm worse than everyone.