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i want to cry but i dont want to. like wtf. Now it;s back to feeling confused, and suffocated. Nah, just blank? I'm feeling nothing right now. I hate this feeling bruh. I'm not sad or anything. just blanking out.

Chile anyways let me just say I'm losing interest in everything. I don't feel anything for learning shit from school anymore. I hate learning. I hate being bossed around by the teachers and being expected to respect them and listen properly in class. Like fuck them, you think I want to be here? It's not like I don't understand that the teacher's just do it for the good of the school and for the students, but I'm just fucking tired of rules.

At least I'm still good at art, because if I lose my ability in that too, I'm actually gonna lose it.