reading

• jeffrey eugenides - the virgin suicides
• louisa may alcott - little women

watching (tv)

• 2 broke girls

listening to

• azealia banks - 212
• angel olsen - shut up kiss me
• childbirth - i only fucked you as a joke
• honeyblood
• katy b - crying for no reason
• soccer mommy - 3 am at a party
• bratmobile - cool schmool
• the raincoats - no one's little girl
• twenty one pilots - heathens
• tove lo - cool girl

favorite movies of the month

• suicide squad (2016)
• victoria (2015)
• what we do in the shadows (2014)
• me before you (2016)
• war dogs (2016)
• the naked gun: from the files of police squad! (1988)
• the virgin suicides (1999)
• reservoir dogs (1992)
• lolita (1997)

occured

• got back to lisbon
• had a night out with alina, francisco and.... r.........
• saw suicide squad!!! finally!!! don't trust the critics it was great
• had a few days alone with my mom
• ~~~BREAKDOWN~~~
• sleeping at nana's
• a guy from high school said "carolina, why weren't we friends before?" and it really touched me
• pulled an all-nighter and felt terrible i'm good now
• kyle and i are pretty much sexting
• francis might have a crush on me
• spent the evening in miguel's house gossiping, drinking and watching star wars
• mom's back
• went to freeport again
• i'm sad
• ricardo asked me out
• ended up going to bairro alto with him, miguel and francis
• guess what.... francis has a crush on me
• ricardo and i flirted all night until we finally gave up and made out and held hands and all that lame shit (my brain screaming DANGER the whole time)
• he asked me out again the next day and we kissed some more
• he really likes me. i don't.
• went to saloon with sílvia
• ricardo told me the most beautiful thing i've ever been told probably
• adopted a cute little kitten and named him after a cute little kitten who lives in a galaxy far far away, luke skywalker

quotes

• "nostalgia is a liar. nothing was ever as good as you remember it to be. there’s a reason you don’t talk to that person anymore, there’s a reason you’re not part of each other’s lives. don’t trust nostalgia. grieve. reflect. move on."
• "vanity destroys your work. (...) i don’t care how sexy or beautiful any woman is. at the end of the day, she has to take her makeup off. at the end of the day, she’s more than just pretty." - viola davis
• "it is not in some hiding-place that we will discover ourselves; it is on the road, in the town, in the midst of the crowd, a thing among things, a human among humans." - jean-paul sartre
• "i do not love my country. its abstract lustre

is beyond my grasp. but (although it sounds bad) i would give my life for ten places in it, for certain people, seaports, pinewoods, fortresses, a run-down city, gray, grotesque, various figures from its history, mountains (and three or four rivers)." - josé emilio pacheco

• "you're still going to get criticized, so you might as well do whatever the fuck you want." - kathleen hanna
• "you are twenty. you are not dead, although you were dead. the girl who died. and was resurrected. children. witches. magic. symbols. remember the illogic of the fantasy." - sylvia plath
• "you have to love. you have to feel. it is the reason you are here on earth. you are here to risk your heart." - louise erdrich

crushes

• r. (i'm a dumbass)
• alicia vikander
• sebastian stan (AGAIN)