reading

• jeffrey eugenides - the virgin suicides

watching (tv)

• friends

listening to

• sia - chandelier (*GETS DRUNK ONCE*)
• great good fine ok - always
• kevin lyttle - turn me on
• grimes - kill v. maim
• nicole dollanganger - ode to dawn wiener: embarrassing love songs (album)
• mazzy star
• shura
• nelson freitas - break of dawn ft. richie campbell

favorite movies of the month

• star wars: episode vii - the force awakens (2015)
• the man who knew infinity (2016)
• the punk singer (2013)
• the fundamentals of caring (2016)

occured

• kyle said "if i get my hands on you you're fucked"
• depression is making a comeback
• portugal is in the finals <3
• blocked dale, who was being a little bitch
• went to the first day of nos alive - saw the 1975, wolf alice and some more bands and spent my day with margarida, it was good fun
• went to the last day of nos alive - saw agir, grimes and some more bands. met up with margarida, francisco, bruno, leonor, luís, marta, diogo... AND MANAGED TO HAVE A MELTDOWN DURING A SHOW #CLASSICCAROL
• went to see the game @ praça do comércio with francisco and his friend we'll call "david"
• PORTUGAL WON!!!!!!!! NEVER BEEN SO PROUD EVEN THO FOOTBALL IS THE OPIUM OF THE PEOPLE AND PATRIOTISM IS A SILLY CONCEPT BC COUNTRIES ARE JUST ARTIFICIAL BARRIERS CREATED BY HUMANS
• saw ricardo l. after the game and we talked for like an hour it was nice specially bc i started at his face the whole time and his face well IT'S A REALLY NICE FACE
• went to bairro alto with francisco, "david" and ana and had a good time until i got way too drunk and started making out with "david"
• half of my night was spent throwing up and the other half sticking my tongue in his mouth
• i'm really hangover now i'm sorry if any of this doesn't make sense
• stopped taking my new medication and i'm feeling much better. back to paroxetina
• ANGER ISSUES!!!
• went shopping at freeport <3333
• saw a movie starring dev patel in a movie theater for the first time!!!!!! <333
• brandon and i are talking on whatsapp
• i'm in ribafria with mom and zoey
• java house
• i'm like... so in love with john boyega......
• francis told me he loves me <3 (as friends... #nohetero)
• miguel did the same #nohetero
• ricado asked me on a date
• SO DID KYLE
• thought i saw a ghost. CREEPY SHIT

quotes

• "and, in the end, we were all just humans, drunk on the idea that love is the only way to heal our brokenness." - f. scott fitzgerald
• "work hard. be so good they can't ignore you. keep to your morals, see through your integrity and don't stop fighting." - gina rodriguez on advice she would give young girls
• "i’m so done with the way girls in twenties are treated. i’m so done with people who literally create timetable for us. 20- 24 find a guy, 24-26 make him propose to you, 27-29 get married. i’m so done. i’m do not want to get 2 a.m texts from my best friend who is freaking out that she is gonna die alone. i do not want see my 20 years old friend wasting her time on some guys who are not even interested in her. i do not want see us falling for every nice guy who does not look creepy. i do not want to see girls get sad or paranoid just bcos they do not fill in the schedule. you are ok. you should enjoy your life at its fullest and one day you will find 10/10 so do not pursue 6 just because you do not want to be single. it is ok and one day you will find someone. do not split your love with people who does not deserve it. keep it for yourself and when time will come you will know. i know it hurts. i know you wish u could just open part of yourself and release the buzzing love. but not every kind of love is romantic. show it to your family, friends, plants, yourself."
• "hunny u need a role model, you go stare yourself in the mirror. You're awesome, brave, strong + amazing don't you forget it" - stephanie beatriz
• "addiction is tricky. for example: a man who quit smoking for 11 years spent 15 seconds in an elevator with a man smoking a cigarette. he gave in. what i’m trying to say is i think i love you again."

crushes

• renato sanches
• gareth bale
• "david" (FOR A NIGHT LMAO! STILL!!!)
• john boyega
• c.
• alicia vikander