reading

• jeffrey eugenides - the virgin suicides

watching (tv)

• scrubs

listening to

• lapsley - station
• taylor swift - this love
• say lou lou - games for girls
• kelly clarkson - my life would suck without you
• father john misty - real love baby

favorite movies of the month

• star wars: episode vi - the return of the jedi (1983)
• star wars: episode i - the phantom menace (1999)

occured

• yo i'm really obsessed with star wars
• i'm talking to pedro for the first time in 3 years
• pedro and i are becoming best friends quickly hahaha
• kyle asked alina for my number oh god
• talking to kyle
• biscaia sent me not one but TWO nudes
• went out with pedro and had the time of my life
• pretty sure he's developing feelings for me
• kyle and i are done
• haha i'm being cyberbullied
• went to saloon with pedro and had a great time
• we got high and joked around like little kids
• yes it's true he has feelings for me
• kyle realized he was a dick to me and now we're good again
• flirting a lot!!!
• met ihsaan
• went to the mall with miguel
• had a night out with pedro
• got so high i actually had a bad trip even though it was only weed
• apparently i kissed him a few times during my bad trip
• it took me over 24 hours to feel ok again
• my great-aunt clara died
• talked to mariana for the first time
• turns out pedro is a jerk #menaintshit
• he tried ruining my friendship with sílvia but we're closer than ever
• talking to dale again
• went to my first lgbt+ party with sílvia and inês
• met diogo and marta (cutest couple ever), miguel ângelo, tiago and carina
• becoming good friends with andreia
• yes kyle is definitely into me
• think my friendship with andreia is over? why do these things happen to me
• PORTUGAL WON!!! and i'm not even patriotic
• WE WON AGAIN
• i'm friends with andreia again??

quotes

• "ways to start feeling again
  • sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

• sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

• stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

• look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself"

crushes

• alicia vikander
• lapsley
• shannon
• charlie puth
• sebastian stan
• bel powley
• diego matamoros
• i can't stop thinking about sebastian stan
• luke skywalker
• ricardo quaresma
• cristiano ronaldo