reading

• the price of salt aka carol - patricia highsmith (1952)

watching (tv)

• brooklyn nine nine

listening to

• the lonely island - mona lisa
• the apache relay - katie queen of tennessee
• carly rae jepsen - gimmie love
• dolores haze - fuck the pain away
• zolita - holy
• calum scott - dancing on my own
• robyn - dancing on my own
• lorde - buzzcut season
• lorde - bravado
• robyn - call your girlfriend
• madonna - like a prayer
• liz - when i rule the world
• kero kero bonito - trampoline
• the lonely island - jizz in my pants
• glee cast - don't stop believing

favorite movies of the month

• the craft (1996)
• a monster calls (2016)
• american honey (2016)
• about time (2013)

occured

• i'm so in love
• miguel is my friend again officially i think
• pedro and i are done for good
• BOUGHT A C3PO FIGURE IT'S MY NEW BEST FRIEND
• lena died :'(
• went to leffest
• i prayed to a god i don't really believe in for the first time in maybe 6 years
• trump won and i'm devastated
• had a really nice debate with my parents at dinner
• went to lisbon at night and wonderful things happened
• pedro talked to me
• i became closer to helder, that one dude said he was speechless with my wisdom and this other guy is totally into me but i didn't even remembered i should add this to this list i guess boys don't do it for me anymore
• had a pretty bad breakdown. terrible. awful
• tried to commit suicide and later found out pedro called my attempt "laughable"
• went on a date with a guy from tinder and it was kinda boring
• i've been feeling sick for a while
• oh WOW! THIS FEELS LIKE LOVE
• went to my first appointment with my new (MALE) therapist and it was weird but very good for my ego
• i'm getting better i think
• eheh SIKE!!! had the biggest breakdown ever and did some fucked up shit i'm not proud of
• decided i'm moving out, looking for small apartments i can rent
• INDIAN FOOD!!!!!!!

quotes

• "i get a little frightened when i think of life slipping through my fingers like water…" - sylvia plath
• "bilinguals overwhelmingly report that they feel like different people in different languages. tt is often assumed that the mother tongue is the language of the true self. (…) but, if first languages are reservoirs of emotion, second languages can be rivers undammed, freeing their speakers to ride different currents" - love in translation by lauren collins

crushes

• ryan gosling
• anton yelchin :'(
• domnhall gleeson