reading

• the price of salt aka carol - patricia highsmith (1952)

watching (tv)

• modern family

listening to

• miley cyrus - bb talk
• lorde - yellow flicker beat
• allie x - that's so us
• chromatics - girls just wanna have fun
• college & electric youth - a real hero
• florrie - too young to remember
• banks - altar (album)
  • particularly - gemini feed, fuck with myself
• cruel youth - alexis texas
• spandau ballet - true
• miley cyrus - lighter
• james arthur - say you won't let go
• imagine dragons & a bunch of rappers - sucker for pain
• hey violet - brand new moves

favorite movies of the month

• drive (2011)
• the girl on the train (2016)
• swiss army man (2016) - MAYBE??? IDK. THIS FILM WAS SO CONFUSING
• rosemary's baby (1968)
• freaks (1932)
• café society (2016)
• shaun of the dead (2004)
• el laberinto del fauno (2006)

occured

• my depression got really really bad
• quit college (for now) and i'm pretty sure it was the right decision
• SEXTING KYLE LIKE CRAZY
• pedro doesn't love me and the best part is that i don't love him either
• almost sexting this hot tinder dude who keeps going on about how gorgeous i am
• my therapist hates my mom i think
• pedro loves someone else
• miguel p. talked to me for the first time in months hahaha BITCH!!!
• it's raining and i think i'm starting to heal inside
• dad, i love you
• that "someone else" dumped pedro and now he's back
• pulled an all nighter
• had the best afternoon nap ever
• family time <3
• pedro still loves sílvia apparently i'm so done with this boy (and all boys in general. fuck off)
• spent the evening in miguel's place
• was supposed to go to tiago's birthday party but it was cancelled and i ended up going to sintra for some drinks with pedro and miguel
• went to miguel's place and pedro showed up there
• pulled an all nighter and felt SICK AF and not in the good way
• pedro loves me and i finally don't love him back
• miguel p. is back LOL
• went to the movies with my parents and they ended up angry at each other
• HALLOWEENYAYAYAYAS
• had dinner with mom and grandma

quotes

• "nothing is true, everything is permitted"
• "i’m caught between trying to live my life and trying to run from it"
• "the only place left for rock to go is toward more girl stars. there’s nothing left for men to do. there’s bound to be more male stars, but they can’t express anything new" - debbie harris
• "and i, tiny being, drunk with the great starry

void, likeness, image of mystery, felt myself a pure part of the abyss" - pablo neruda

• "educate yourself. when a question about a certain topic pops up, google it. watch movies and documentaries. when something sparks your interest, read about it. read read read. study, learn, stimulate your brain. don’t just rely on the school system, educate that beautiful mind of yours"
• "compare yourself only to your previous self"
• "i love the night. it's the only time i feel truly alive" - mina, dracula (1931)
• "i’m restless. things are calling me away. my hair is being pulled by the stars again."

crushes

• FRIES
• edgar wright
• jamie dornan
• jesse eisenberg
• oscar isaac
• THAT GUY I SAW ON A PORN.
• THAT OTHER GUY I SAW ON SOME OTHER PORN.
• ANTON YELCHIN :'(