reading

• machado de assis - o alienista

watching (tv)

• buzzfeed unsolved

listening to

• death team - dolphin style
• sza - drew barrymore
• rina sawayama - alterlife
• tennis - ladies don't play guitar
• björk - army of me
• pssy pwr - rodeo
• kool & the gang - celebration

favorite movies of the month

• dead poets society (1989)
• finding forrester (2000)
• valerian and the city of a thousand planets (2017) (shut up)
• call me by your name (2017)

occured

• leonor is fake as hell and i'm ok with that
• talking with inês and miguel again
• GOT MY FIRST TATTOO DONE!!!! :-) "i always win", as my 16 yr old self had promised
• it didn't hurt at all and i actually like being poked with the damn needle which is strong evidence that maybe i'll ***** ****
• i feel terribly sick again and i'm not sure why, probs bc i started consuming some dairy again (not milk nor cheese but i DID eat an ice cream the day i started feeling crappy) so i'm going back to my old ways.... checking every ingredient before i put something in my mouth
• leia is so in love with me
• i'm in love with her (and i also might be in love with *****)
• bought fairy lights
• my dad went on a business trip so i had to take care of zoey
• my mom fractured her teeth (so we think, we don't know what it is for sure but the left side of her face is swollen as hell)
• she had a fight with her devil boyfriend tonight and he literally covered her mouth so she would stop talking... she was in terrible pain when she called me and now she won't pick up the phone
• i wish he'd die and i wish i'd get to kill him.
• so things are Bad
• but i spent a nice day with my nana and it felt so magical so let myself believe i have a family, just for a few hours
• lil peep died and i'm sadder than i would expect
• i HATE men but i'm SO IN LOVE with the rest
• saw call me by your name and managed to stay calm throughout the entire film + ride home, but once i was alone i bawled my eyes out
• there was a slight chance i would go to nyc but it's slowly fading hahahaha NEWS!

quotes

• "natural simplicity as superior to technological complexity; rejection of machismo, violence and war in favour of femininity and nature; distrust of power and the suppression of individuality; the ability of women to manipulate males sexually without being manipulated themselves"

crushes

• harry styles
• dane dehaan
• joe keery