• green tea
    • l-theanine
    • i can pretend
    • mom dropped it off with the other things from trader joes and maybe i learned a bit about love, but i didn't want to, and i don't
  • coffee
    • half-decaf /half-regular
    • decaf
    • left over from the day before
      • what will now become a regular thing
  • black tea
  • non-caffeinated tea
    • why
    • but i'll drink it (see third subsection of green tea)
  • St. John's Wort
    • had 2 stop
    • weird/good dreams but i couldn't learn anything
    • kinda numb? I remember i was smiling once from inside on the way 2 geo
  • weed
    • last two times I've smoked some guy has touched my back
    • I am never as high or as happy as anyone else
    • how else am i going to make friends
  • Dabs
    • Brennan is bringing some and i'm going to "party"
  • cigarettes
    • shared them with Charlie who is a shrewd business man and told me I wasn't ambitious, and then I decided I would only smoke my own from then on, but haven't smoked since
      • I care too much for my own health despite the fact that I don't look both ways when crossing traffic
      • I almost got hit by a bus and then two seconds later, a car
    • hasn't asked me for a cigarette since
  • whey vanilla flavored protein shake
    • with almond milk and a dash of regular milk
    • i wanna be strong
    • whenever i think too hard about the past i feel compelled to burn it off
      • and you know which past i'm talking about
  • alcohol
    • i can't bring myself to have a beer but I'll drink clear straight from the bottle
    • rum is awful
    • charlie says he can buy me anything and I almost say wine but feel cheated before I am and change my mind
    • not a good drug but A Drug am i rite
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