- Week of October 28th 2013
- I indicated a bad thing
- got high off of (release of) stress
- said/told things I'm probably will/do regret
- procrastinated a shit ton
- worried
- texted N
- Three diminutive men, except 2 were boys
- November 10th
- POEMS?!!???!?
- Come on you can't have that much faith in me
- sentiments
- heh u a beetch fak u bitc
- week of nov 21
- saying hi to people in hallways is so perplexing
- especially if they are attractive
- and if they are people you want to be friends with but you don't know how.
- not saying hi to people is equally perplexing
- this is a goddamned science
- except there are those I definitely do avoid/need to avoid
- I expect people to be good and they aren't (though I do suppose I shouldn't considering I'm not good myself). I say to much when I shouldn't and I say nothing when I should say something.
- January 10th 2014
- Two hundred percent sure I'm going to fail all my finals
- still can't talk to people
- jan 24, 2014
- I can't take compliments but thank you teacher 1 and teacher 2
- I used to cry when people said stuff like that but I don't/can't anymore it's weird
- it's just thank you thank you thank you with a blank stare and a blank heart I can't comprehend your words
- it's all going to my head
- I did another bad thing
- I feel so damn disconnected from everything. At first it was as if I was wrapped in saran wrap; there was something jarring and off but I could still feel the warmth if I was close enough. But now it’s a wall of glass and I’m not even trying to press myself against it anymore.
- I’m picking up a phone and I can’t hear anything on the other end. I’m not sure if I want to anymore.
- 2/22/14
- I'm never ever ever ever lucid anymore or maybe it's just this headache and negative bias, but gosh, I can't think.
- nov 27 2014
- time has passed and I'm still the same I cannot think I cannot think I cannot think and when I do it's the same things over and over and over and over again and I don't know what's true but really that's just me telling myself lies to make things seem better than they actually are
oct 16 2013 ∞
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