• lately, i've been feeling apathetic, and guilty, from exploring my own desires, my likes and dislikes, i don't really know why this happens. i shouldn't feel guilty about it. i need to find a way to express myself and my neediness. my mind is confused, as it always is. i don't feel like talking, interactiing. and i wonder if i should push myself a bit further or just isolate myself for good.

i need time to think. to spend time with myself. completely alone. but the loneliness is hard to bare sometimes. everything frightens me. i wish i coould express myself better. im always thinking negatively. screw that. im not in the moood to write. im heading back to work.