and not just like 12 year old saying I'm ocd about everything, these things honestly give me stress/ raised blood pressure

• the microwave beeping
• when people leave time on the microwave, especially at my house since the microwave then flashes "PRESS START" and seeing it out of the corner of my eye killlls me. its even worse if its left on a random number, rather than one thats a multiple of five. anywhere I see this, i can guarantee I'll clear it, no matter what
• not having the microwave on a multiple of five, even if it means having my food 4 seconds over cooked
• okay, this is TMI but I always HAVE to wipe twice when I go to the bathroom. hahaha ok. but really. no matter what.
• my refrigerator swings shut on its own, and that kills me, especially when i'm just using something from it really quickly ...

• begin to hope, feels, gorilla manor, narrow stairs
• instax mini + film
• necklace with my name in hieroglyphics from egypt
• ihome
• nylon subscription
• basquiat t-shirt
• book signed by james w. loewen
• film
• CHOCOLATE
• SOAP

• rolls and their presence at every meal, 'cause lord knows I'm not gonna like the main course
• that my family doesn't participate in black friday
• free shipping at my favorite stores
• having two bakeries within two blocks of my house
• geonettis
• keurig coffee maker/ french toast coffee
• contraceptives
• Elijah
• warm weather even in late November

• matched with Justina (i52.tinypic.com/51a3uq.jpg)
• Pomegranate tootsie pop
• Geonetti's
• photo bombing
• not doing anything all first period
• 92 on my first college test
• "it looks like you just attended your husbands funeral and are trying to look cute for the grave diggers"
• I like it on the kitchen counter
• tacos for dinner, mixed berry pie for dessert/ first at home sit-down dinner since Christmas
• SVU marathon
• Nick Lombardi is the funniest person I have ever met in my whole life/ "I quadroople dog dare you to get an emancipation" "if Hannah Montana can do it, you can too" "are you talking about Miley Cyrus?"
• Nick and I actually have the same recurri...

• Moleskine in the mail
• Stabilo 68 and 88 too
• Anniversary
• Best friends
• Moving next to Mill Mountain Coffee
• Big fishbowl full of: tootsie rolls, smarties, and lollipops sitting next to this computer
• Best music ever
• Zea's fisheye coming my way
• Best goodwill sweater collection ever
• Actually have money to get film developed/ purchase film
• Not sick, not stupid, not pregnant, not hungry, not tired
• Art
• Visiting William and Mary next weekend, Pomona next month
• Not living with that bitch-dog Fluffy anymore
• Nothing to worry about

• Hardcover book photo frame
• Comb-and-ruler mail slot
• ✔ Matchbox pinhole camera
• Twig Candelabra
• ✔ Draw something big
• ✔ Read any of the books on the "books that need to be read" list
• Make a book
• Colored napkin wreath
• Teach myself french

• William and Mary (Virginia)(September)
• Pomona (California)(October)
• Haverford (Pennsylvania)(November)
• SCAD (Georgia)(January)
• University of Virginia (Virginia)(March)
• Oberlin (Ohio)(April)
• Reed (Oregon)(May)
• Lewis & Clark (Oregon)(May)
• Columbia (New York)(July)

• fell in love and stayed in love the entire year
• 10-11
• first paid job
• collected 9 new cameras
• got ~90 rolls of film developed from them
• saw every episode of criminal minds.. ever INCLUDING the pilot... and I've never seen the pilot episode of anything other than spongebob and degrassi.
• ditto the office^
• new music, new friends
• spent the night in a haunted house
• cleaned my room a million times
• ate a lot of pizza, and i mean a lot
• saw a lot of movies and cried at the majority of them
• impromptu trips to florida
• on a lawn, in a car, in the shower

• my work
• ending world hunger
• anything useful

Pluses:

• got two new packs of Trident Layers (aka best gum ever) (no I'm not sharing)
• Chick-fil-a for lunch
• Gummy bears from The Rat (aka best gummy bears ever)
• hung out with Maxwell and Lindsayyyyy
• Ginger cookies in the shape of fall leaves, sent in by my classmate's mom
• Dakota did NOT succeed in cutting my hair

(all my +s always revolve around food..)

Minuses:

• got caught by the biggest douchebag ever sneaking into Paranormal Activity
• couldn't get a cash refund
• can't purchase a book that I need to have fully read by thursday
• two paper rewrites, two full papers, two books, one textbook chapter, and 60 minut...

• Veggies
• Prickly legs
• Republican extremists
• Religious extremists
• When things don't go my way
• Rainy days canceling plans
• I before E except after c (in words other than neighbor or weigh)
• Lined paper
• The way my cat gets really hyper at night
• The way my dog eats all my food off the table
• Contact lenses.. and glasses
• underexposed
• Impatience
• PMS
• Going more than 24 hours without showering
• Crying in public/ the way you look after crying

• Asia, Africa, (more of) North America, South America, Antarctica, (more of) Europe, and Australia
• Chuck Close (again/ more)
• Complete collection of Opa's photos
• Every inch of England
• Everything ever painted by Mark Rothko/ The Rothko Chapel
• Great Wall/ farmlands in Eastern China
• Isaiah Zagar and the magic garden
• Miles Mendenhall's baggy eyes
• My grandfathers grave in France
• My niece
• New Orleans
• or an elephant
• Rainforests
• Starry Night
• Stokeley Morgan
• Sufjan Stevens (Novemberrrr)
• The view from the top of the Eiffel Tower

• CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
  • Gill Grissom,duh. He's the fictional equivilant of Josh Chapman
• Work of Art: The Next Great Artist
  • Miles. How could someone not love the permanent bags under his eyes
• The Real World: DC
  • Andrew... Although I see why some people question me on this one.

• Ancient Aliens
• dresses I don’t have to wear bras with
• velveeta shells & cheese microwaveable singles
• not living in “the real world”
• The Real World
• buying belts from goodwill
• crime shows (real and fictional)
• taking showers, lots of really short showers
• geonetti’s every day for lunch
• thinking about cutting off all my hair, and then not doing it
• sour Altoids mints
• organization (even though I can never keep anything that way)
• lighting matches just to blow them out
• lifetime movie network
• interior decoration
• oral arguments

• plans, feels, & far
• instax mini
• all seasons of In Treatment on dvd
• sleep

• marks (no pun intended) one year
• my house is only 1 block from my school
• spicy things taste better in winter (gingerbread, pumpkin spice, apple cider etc)
• bought three new scarves
• fireplaces
• day light savings is on my side this time
• makes Florida the perfect weather and I will be there in december
• ice skating
• annual reunion with friends from middle school
• flushed cheeks

• its over
• I never thought itd be over
• I used to look at every one elses relationships and think mine was so much better. mine was longer and would continue to be longer. I was wrong. i love him so much. I know he loves me too. I wish this hadn't happened. I wish I didn't have the beliefs I do. I wish I never had written that letter. I thought everything would be okay. I woke up today thinking everything would be okay. and even after he told me, I still thought everything would be okay. its so hard. This is going to be so hard. I don't know how to live now. Its been years since I had to deal with this.
• can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe.
• rain
• strangers keep trying to be nice because I have that I-just-cried look tattooed onto my face

• Basquiat
• Diving Bell and the Butterfly
• Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• Funny Games
• Grey Gardens (both the original and the remake)
• In A Dream
• Inception
• Paris, Je T'aime
• Seven Pounds
• Spirited Away
• Virgin Suicides

• Catcher in the Rye
• Choke (finish)
• ✔ Dubliners (for school)
• Eating Animals (maybe)
• Erotic Poems
• Everything is Illuminated
• Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
• House like a Lotus
• Into Thin Air
• Invisible Monsters (whyyyy isnt it on Kindle)
• Kite Runner
• Looking for Alaska
• My Sister's Keeper
• Perks of Being a Wallflower
• Shutter Island
• Slaughterhouse-5
• The History of Love
• Tuesdays with Morrie
• Ulysses
• Virgin Suicides (which I'm currently read...