- if my mother nd i weren't so alike i think i'd be convinced im a changeling
- i am the worlds most law abiding citizen and tht is okay! except that one time whn i stole a candle. ive been told that i give the vibe that i tip 20 percent on my taxes which is RUTHLESS but true. it is fine to be the way i am
- Guys i literally dont think i have object permanence. Do i remember things yes but do they mean anything to me btwn 3 days-6months after they happen no
- hey! its ok to like some of the same things as shitty people! theres like a 99 percent chance that theres a literal fascist who shares an interest with you its gonna be fine that you both like uh. Reading? and the same One book? literally one of the most common activities and also like a specific aesthetic .. still. i do it better
- continuing that shes also maybe not a shitty person! she seems kinda cool in some ways and u like a lot of the same things shes just got an intereting personality. like she just doesnt rlly get boundaries which r huge for me .. homie invited me to a lesbian bar .. i appreciate it but like one im heterosexual i feel like thatd be weird and two i literally look sober
- i have an insane piece of shit sense. like im like the baby from itysl .. i can tell when someones gonna slop ME up like a steak. i am not ur little steak boy to slop up . i never used to listen to it bcs """"cool""" ppl always used to be pieces of shit but like thats balls. thats doodoo. its so hard not to swear im trying
- I am going to be good forever.
- WHAT DO I HAVW ????? What is the horse thing
- I love everyone i know . Human beings r impossible to hate
- unless i see what i hate abt myself in them which is a different case. Those r just little brown autistic girls trying their best and i have no reason to be as angry as i am with them. Nothing makes me want to kill myself more than seeing the odd and awkward and ugly parts of myself manifested in another person who is so clearly suffering
- in the third layer of aria rn . The fourth and fifth ones r the best
- layer 1 is Existing concerned w other people. status and judgement . Its ok in there but i feel unspeakable guilt every time i get a chance to leave it
- layer 2 is nice aria <3 not fake nice aria like cailey but actual nice happy aria who wants to be her best self and be kind and who feels in control of things and like i deserve to be places
- layer 3 is me if i was an akhil sharma character.i hate her shes so self aware in such a sinister way. she does everything for the wrong reasons. she is terrible. IMPOSSIBLE TO LEAVE WHEN IM IN THERE
- hiiiiiii its 1 year older aria!!! layer 3 is dead :3 also layer 1 sort of does not care anymore. like i am just chilling
- layer 4 is home i guess . Everything kinda falls into place. Its good
- layer 5 can kind of exist on top of any of the others? mostly hovers over 1. Never on 3 but is sort of holding hands with 4. Thats where all my past selves read over my shoulder and tell me theres always something more
- Very importnat which is when im outside of layer 3 (triggered by making decisions bcs im Supposed to. Or bcs theyre "good" but idk why or what they do ever) i am kind and good and wonderful. Layer 3 makes that impossible to see. its made out of concrete
- I would like to know less. Or maybe i would just like to know more about good things.. but dark things are the things i wnat to know about in the moment. But i already know so many bad things that i have to know how to make those bad things good and then find good all over again
- gnosis is the one is evening primrose
- Come on guys. Take me back to my morning routine evening routine dark academia royalcore studytok solar lunar or stellar girl era. I wish i knew less. I cant even be small anymore. Im like a desert today. And other days sometimes too that are like today but most definitely not all the time.
- To everything there is a season
- its my straightiversary guys !!! happy straightiversary aria ( u have to say it back )
- ive lost poetry and age regression and music for a while #collegeboard But they will come back. Everything comes back. A time to cast away stones a time to gather stones together...
- different people like different things.
- stop making yourself upset
- girl i think my old piano teacher is going through psychosis on her facebook wall
- I LOVE MEN they are all so cute and pretty <3
jan 10 2022 ∞
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