April —

• Japanese rap/trap is so fucking fire???

March —

• Okay so far this year I got into sooo many things, I never even planned on getting into. Joji. Post Malone. Zayn. The Untamed, including my growing obsession with Xiao Zhan and Wang Yibo. Oneus. Verivery. Yanan!!! Which also revived my lost love for Pentagon??? I think I'm just thirsty for new things that can stimulate my brain and curiousity. It feels so fun and fresh so far, I kinda feel like I'm in 2016 again, when I first discovered k-pop.
• Uuuuh.... New month, new love?? I guess??? COZ WANG YIBO IS IT RIGHT NOW. HE'S SO FUNNY??? AWKWARD??? HONEST??? CUTE?????? ALSO H O T ??? And. He's a dancer. That's basically a selling point.
• The Untamed made me fall in love with chinese again... maybe I'll go back to studying... hmm...

February —

• POST MALONE MY NEW LOVE???? SO CUTE FLUFFY AND HOT??? wow
• Found my new favourite instrument - kalimba. Wanna learn how to play it.
• Jojo Rabbit was so beautiful. Perfect fusion of hilarious satire and sad reality.
• Falling in love with Joji more and more with every video I watch and song I listen to. What a cutie, smart boi.
• Work feels empty without K.

January —

• Very strange, emotional and unstable month. Discovered few nice new things but when it comes to heart stuff... kinda hopeless right now. Is it all done though? Not sure. Hope February treats us all better and I can focus on self-improvement more. Also try to be a better friend for those far away because currently I suck ass, lmao.
• Best dark chocolate so far is Wedel's 64% cocoa one. I'll try to eat only this as my "sweet craving snack" since now.
• I think I'm very very slowly... getting over... him. Since we stopped texting and talking as much after that infamous party, I started seeing him in less of a "cute" light and more of a "bitchy" light. He's a very easily annoyed kid that doesn't know what he wants, can't say the truth and likes to lead me on and mess with my head. I think I really meant it that one day when I told him "I deserve someone who will treat me better and love me as much as I love them". To which he said "ur right". Literally. God, I wasted so much time for him. Although, every experience shapes you into someone more aware of yourself, so maybe it's not all in vain. Even if it really feels like a waste of almost a year. I'm not sure, time will tell, I guess.

reminder for myself: newer observations are higher