i have been too delusional, i have cocooned in my happy bubble house for so long i forgot im unworthy of even a slightest chance with anyone, i may face loneliness for the rest of my life, don’t i ever dare to imagine someone would think about me before they sleep, don’t i dare to have my love reciprocated. let me loiter around in my own pipe dream. 最深、最愛、最低、再生、最低性の思いやり。会いたい人に黙っていたから、漂うだけでいいのね。

i may die alone, i may live alone for the rest of my life. it's not that im constantly seeking love, but im worthless and unworthy and unlovable to the point no one will ever love me. i will be always used as a step stone for them to find a better person. i have always been myself, then why no one loves me, you told me not to worry and love myself more, but i have loved myself enough. i even stopped to seek love once and nothing happened. how can i even find love then, im so pathetic i will die alone.“you gotta be happy with yourself before you’re able to date anyone else.” this and that then i will be single for the rest of my life damn fuck.