i used to see you while walking in the streets. as if i have the power to forget what happened and pretend, even for a few minutes, you are still around. surrounding me invisibly. maybe holding me with your invisible arms. loving me quietly. everybody thinks i already moved on but it's more like i do it step by step day by day. you know, i just pretend fine. and they believe it which is insane but i prefer that way cause it's easier that way. got tired of they telling i am strong because i hate how i got this trait. i'd have rather being the weaker person ever for the rest of life than losing you.