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spider, spider
on the wall
don't you have no brains at all?
can't you see that wall is
plaster?
come down here you little
BUG.

xx

birthday girl follows:
  • the blood brothers, crimes, 2004
  • my kidney is on fire.
  • i have to wake up soon.
  • i'm hungry, but my kidney is making me nervous.
  • but not nervous enough to go to the doctor.
  • i've had some serious bad luck this week
  • are fat lips in season???
  • i don't know what keeps me going...
  • it's been a long time since i've tried to take my life
  • it's weird watching yourself become invisible to the only person you want to see you.
  • i hate my roommate.
  • i'm pissed i can't do anything for halloween.
  • i guess this is it.
oct 29 2009 ∞
oct 29 2009 +
  • Today is like setting success into pause and scratching it up.
  • My laundry is clean and warm.
  • I'm addicted to Mixed Berry Green Tea with honey.
  • Or maybe i'm addicted to my bones coming up through my skin...
  • Rereading The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
  • I'm getting the christmas "fuzzies".
  • It's ALMOST enough to get me to miss minnesota...almost.
  • But really, i just miss you.
  • It's 47 degrees.
  • Last night, i worried myself into a panic attack.
  • I don't like the new conor oberst album. it's awful.
  • mosters of folk is mediocre.
  • weird things keep happening to me.
  • angel found me again.
  • 12:51 is my favorite time.
oct 14 2009 ∞
oct 14 2009 +
  • listen to julian plenti
  • write the novel that screaming at you
  • destroy everything that is him
  • forget, forget, forget
  • flirt, flirt, flirt
  • chadd & chase.
  • seek professional help and cooperate.
  • take the monster pills
  • be a normal girl
  • be a fly on the wall
  • hold your breath till it's over.
oct 9 2009 ∞
oct 9 2009 +
  • 12:23 am
  • don't cut yourself, retard.
  • even when i melt my heart a little, i miss the easy/love of ice.
  • he doesn't remind me of anyone but me.
  • & sometimes it kills me to be on this side of the glass.
  • it's best that he doesn't know why i got in that car.
  • [death is addicting. sorry, kids.]
  • i miss sam.
  • 2010 & all i want is a little bit of inspiration.
  • let myself be happy?
  • finish my short story idea.
  • i need to remember to assign myself more projects.
  • the future is stepping on my fingers.
jan 5 2010 ∞
jan 5 2010 +
  • the xx
  • dark living room.
  • plaid flannel (green), zipper leggings, moccasins.
  • wet black hair
  • "sometimes, i still need you."
  • Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs is amazing.
  • i can't stop shaking.
  • New make up, Gypsy palette, white eyeliner, & hairspray shampoo.
  • i want to go camping up state.
  • i miss my dad.
  • i'm quitting my job.
  • i kind of want to move to Australia.
  • i should suspend all life choices till i'm sober, but that's not happening.
oct 17 2009 ∞
oct 17 2009 +
  • not being able to sleep after i've taken sleeping pills
  • not being able to tell my family anything & then i get stressed out.
  • when my boyfriend asks me questions that he knows i don't know.
  • root beer floats
  • most of my minnesota "friends"
  • broken hearts
  • april and now December.
  • my dead end, brain dead job.
  • people who are worried about being "pc"
  • saunas
  • ice cream truck music
  • nothing surprises me anymore.
  • sports bars
  • cargo shorts and the boys that wear them
  • baseball. it's boring.
  • b12 vitamins
  • not having the guts
  • disappointment
oct 9 2009 ∞
oct 9 2009 +
  • boys suck
  • i say suck but i really mean they don't deserve a second of my time.
  • I AM NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN THRUST YOUR DREAMS ON!
  • i just want a respectable amount of distance between me and everyone i will ever know.
  • panic attacks and engagement rings don't go together.
  • i don't like feeling i have to have plans
  • Deadlines make feel like i've got a noose around my neck, but i preform well.
  • skinny bank accounts cause me stress and blinding migraines.
  • there isn't one person in mn that i don't have some sort of problem with.
  • hiding in new york seems easier. cheaper. healthier.
  • i only attract boys that are completely u...
oct 20 2009 ∞
oct 20 2009 +
  • 10:36 am
  • Monday rebirth and the taking of lives.
  • Florence + The Machine's Howl is perfect.
  • I'm fucking starving.
  • I'm not eating again.
  • Christmas lists are fun/scary.
  • I wonder what that was yesterday.
  • I'm scared to finish the Gargoyle
  • Ghosts.
  • Splinter
  • I'm still all bruised up.
  • I'm freezing.
  • I'm getting another cold.
  • Green Tea is like my new god.
  • I need more books so i have more friends.
  • I love the smell of coffee
  • In the battle of good vs evil i don't take sides.
  • i'm still trying to get addicted to anyth...
oct 12 2009 ∞
oct 12 2009 +