I can't explain how much you mean to me. it's an indescribable feeling. you constantly keep me smiling. maybe it's the things you say or how you make my day. there's just something about you. that keeps me going back for more. Now we're too close. Too close to comfort. sometimes I question myself If i give him my heart will he be like the rest or will he actually be different and take care of it. Something I can't say to your face. Only because I'm still scared. Maybe scared to lose you or maybe you'll just think I'm a fool. I don't know I can't explain. I push you away to save the pain. but what I'm really doin is just hurting myself and hurting you. Something I don't want to do. So I apologize because as I sit here and write tears are running down my eyes. I guess I been through so much pain that you actually were the only person to stay. the only person by my side. the person who will be there for the rest of my life. The one who will always be down to ride. Your the one that I'll have unconditional love for. So as I said before.... I'M SORRY. I'm sorry for everything I put you through. and this is just a phase. But I promise things will get better throughout the days. just for now I call it a break <3