why i should be glad that its over...

• all his horrid tattoos. the things he's done to his ears especially i can never get over. i know its his body and it makes him what he is but damn they are a mess and i wish he'd laser them and look nice. i also hate those skull things on his neck. think i need a man with pretty tattoos...especially neck.
• the mess he made of my wrist. it was a grey splodge and i had to get it fixed on thursday night. he knows he fucked up but has never offered to pay for it to be fixed.
• the whole not very fit boday - yeah i know i'm one to talk now i'm sprouting bingo wings and have strange thigh things, but i'm 10 years older than him and have had a kid...and i have womanly hormones.
• yes. he does have a floppy small cock. at least flower boy's tiny-ness would stay hard no matter what. he obviously never loved me as soft as it always is. or he really is gay.
• that 'service me' position that he does.
• boring sex.
• boring life - never go anywhere i can dress up.
• that whole not drinking thing that i'm very proud of, but has been strange for me to be around - he might not need support to quit but i needed support to support if that makes any sense?
• scratch that - he drinks again.
• messy.
• his idea of making it up to me for violently kicking me out of the house in cyprus was to tidy the house - i do that every week and no one thinks its special when i do it - so why does he deserve a god damn fucking gold star?
• yelling at me for crying when he moved out and calling me an embarrassment for being upset that we couldn't work things out.
• that hairy ass thing... he should stop complaining and buy his own fucking clippers and do something about it!
• not bothering to confirm or show up when he says he is going to...
• when he sits down he is so fat his belly shows under his t-shirt.
• making me wait while he decides if he is ready to get back together again or not.
• saying he wants me to come round for dinner then txting me at work to say he doesn't wanna try again.
• making me pay for my own xmas present after i bought him the tattoo machine he wanted and the really expensive coat.
• telling me its over then still reading my blog and then phoning me 3 times in 5 minutes to complain.
• his jealousy! he got jealous of some guy on tv that i don't even know that i said had nice hair.
• he would get angry and argue with me if i worked on male dreadlock clients while he was at work or away or otherwise couldn't be there.
• realising that he's just a very small tiny blip in my life compared to someone like flowerboy who's been around and on/off for years and years and years.
• i never want to watch another fishing show ever on tv
• shoulda listened to my first impression when i met him at download and just thought he was a big fat sweaty normal guy with bad tattoos and a receding hairline