Book: Born to Love, Cursed to Feel - Samantha King

• “You’re a beautiful kind of madness a misunderstood truth O, the things they could learn from the darkness that is hidden behind your eyes So gifted, yet your talents are wasted you gave up chasing dreams Reality hit and you got a taste of failure Cautious now about bearing your soul For if others saw you fully exposed they may not love you like they claim to Time and experience have taught you to trust no one Friends, lovers, and even family have forsaken you You keep the shattered pieces of your heart in a box Stitching, gluing, and staying up all night trying to put it back together Attempting to fill the void that was left Moving from one man to the next It seems no one can satisfy the appetite for affection that you seek Continually picking at old wounds they never heal properly You have no real home, too restless to stay in one place You are reckless, selfish, stubborn, sometimes rude You’ve bottled up the pain of so much that has been done When you’re hurt You close into yourself, shut down You love attention and yet love being by yourself more May God have mercy on your soul For you are truly lost Daily you fight your demons Yet no one knows of that which you endure You bear it alone, never speaking of it You can blame the broken home from which you came Or the environment that you grew up in The people who tore you down so young You can point the finger at those who have whispered behind your back They all have played a role in your development But looking so deep into the past will keep you from moving forward You must love yourself more than these people claim they doLook at where you stand now No one can know the things you have endured like you You’ve never claimed to be perfect Your flaws tell your story There is no need to hide them" (Perfect)
• “The scary part is I knew exactly how bad you were for me and yet that didn’t stop me from loving you” (Eyes Open)
• “I thought I would be devastated without you I was waiting for everything to rip apart The sky didn’t come crashing down Air still flows through my lungs Blood surges through my veins I thought I would lie down in surrender I didn’t give my heart enough credit I sit here waiting for it The realization that you are a part of my Life no more I’ve wrapped my mind around the notion It’s possible I already cried enough Perhaps the year and a half spent trying to make sense of all this has finally drained me Maybe, just maybe, I always knew I deserved better, but was too afraid to accept it I feel as if I should mourn us Except I sit here relieved I gave you my all and took the loss that even that wasn’t enough Maybe, just maybe, you were never meant to be mine no matter how hard I loved you You broke me in ways that I’ve never experienced before and if I’m wise enough will not allow myself to endure again I no longer think of you as often or long for you at night There are moments where you are missed that I cast into the light of your negligence and allow it to burn away and die I hungered for Love, your Love, and starved No worries, I carry no hate in my heart for you I want no parts of you to linger long here You weren’t ready for the Love I could give Now I have a different plan in mind” (Good-bye)
• “I get it, doing what you can to not think about the girl you can’t have The one who told you her fears like you were going to be the last one to hear it She only gives herself in pieces” ... “You were brave enough to wake up now don’t go back to sleep ” (Excerpt - Woke)
• “I went to the dark part of my mind Put one foot on the shovel and dug you up I needed to look one more time, just one more glance My mistake was thinking it was really over because once free you decided to wreak havoc on the rest of my mind Making it dark too” (Anguish)
• “You’re the poem I couldn’t finish The journey I should have never started I saw tragedy in our ending My pen bled its heart out trying to change it But you were the fight I didn’t want to lose The addiction I didn’t want to quit Yet there was only one of us holding on I wasn’t attached to the man you are But the one you could be I tried to build where there was no foundation Create a fairy tale on blank pages But some stories need not be told, let alone written” (Excerpt - Dear...)
• “I don’t know why I expected you to save me I didn’t care enough to save myself” (Excerpt - Prince Charming)
• “She gave herself in small doses so when people left it would hurt less” (Excerpt - Trust Issues)
• “We search within lost souls and through the lies for the truth The unwavering absolution that someone saw us for who we are and loved us” (Salvation)