october

• 10/03— the feeling of euphoria as you give someone you love a gift that you've worked so hard on is such a good feeling.
• 10/06— heartbreak comes in waves; when you know it is coming and you expect it and when you know it's coming but you refuse to believe it.
• 10/10— not everything in the world is fixable; let things go, let people go. let go, with time.
• 10/11— reconnecting with a friend who you'd give the stars to; an unbreakable bond that cannot be severed.
• 10/15— started reading two new novels; the priory of the orange tree by samantha shannon and surfacing by margaret atwood.
• 10/17— a friend gave me a free iced coffee— the kindness that lies within the hearts of others is so beautiful.
• 10/18— reread the iliad for the second and reminisced the first time it was ever read; moments of nostalgia and longing.
• 10/20— planning out the future and daydreaming about future homes and room decorations; it's the small things that matter.
• 10/22— films and television distract the mind from wandering into dangerous territory. i thank the sky each day for entertainment.
• 10/24— halloween costume planning and iced vanilla coffee running through the veins of my being. pain in the form of an old lover; memories of happiness now feelings of pain.
• 10/26— new notebook and fresh notes, erasable highlighter in both blue and pink that make notes look elegant. starting new.
• 10/28— coffees and horror movies; ways to watch films that put you in the halloween spirit as the day inches closer. soft notes written in notebooks; revision of beowulf.
• 10/30— dressing up in costume and enjoying the evening and a nice dinner that warmed up my tummy! feeling beauty and joy.
• 10/31— halloween was spent gloriously; curled up in bed and watching horror movies without a worry in the world.

november

• 11/01— going to a new bookstore and purchasing the goldfinch and the divine comedy. spending the afternoon curled up and reading, searching for new bookstores.
• 11/02— sleeping early and catching up on hours of sleep that have been missed due to a sleep schedule slowly but surely failing.
• 11/03— driving before the sun comes up; beautiful sunrises that i wish i could have photographed but are stored in my memory forever. the soft sound of music flowing in the car so early in the morning.
• 11/04— starting a job in the nearest bookstore; organizing the shelves completely and putting them where they belong. praise from strangers and saccharine handshakes. the sweet taste of iced vanilla coffee on my lips as a reward for surviving my tiring day.
• 11/05— poetry written about someone you admire, painted nails and the feeling of cold water running down your face.
• 11/08— laughing until you cannot breathe— officially letting go of the things in which have held you back.
• 11/09— planning the future in ways different than ever before; watching yourself grow into the person you know that the child version of yourself would entirely adore.
• 11/10— bookstores and organization; praise from those around you for your hard work and for putting your heart into each and everything that you do.
• 11/11— wishes upon the sky throughout the day, doing things in which make you smile; fairy lights and bottles of water.
• 11/12— taylor swift red (taylor's version) on repeat the entirety of the day, memories of youth and childhood. shy smiles and reminiscent tears.
• 11/14— exhaustion and blushing cheeks, messy hair and notes; studying and blaring music within headphones.
• 11/16— anxiety and fear; the feeling of awe and of infatuation. watching and waiting for someone when they're not showing up.
• 11/17— hannibal and finishing a novel on the list; iced sweet tea and completion of a novel that challenged the brain.
• 11/19— a genuine crush; big smiles and laughs, questions of 'are you okay?' filling ears and filling the heart with love. iced vanilla coffee and euphoria.

december

• 12/01— dinner in the car, tears about thinking of the end of adolescence, preparing presents.
• 12/02— 'happy birthday's filling ears, birthday cake and eighteen candles, saying goodbye to adolescence and hello to adulthood, birthday presents and pretty wrappings.