i know you are aware of this website, and that you used to update it just to see if i talk about you

you used to say that you were afraid to find something bad about you, later you said that i didn't believe in us

think about it

i believed in us oh god how i believed

there's a piece of you everywhere and started here

i made lists about you as who plan something important for their future and they don't want anything to go wrong so they list stuff and concentrate on it because they really really really, from the bottom of their hearts, want to make it work

i did it 'cause i thought we were special and you were a gift that universe gave me after all the shit that i have been going through

i loved so deeply, believed so much and held so tight and somehow this were never ...

• wear tight and revealing clothes without feeling ashamed and uncomfortable
• love my personality and my appearance
• stop procrastinating
• be brave enough to make the first step and have more attitude
• stop being afraid of responsability
• be more sociable and less weird
• stop being afraid of commitments
• be less awkward towards authorities
• have more confidence

• he likes cult things like operas and orchestras
• he likes poker
• he likes knives and all kinds of blades
• he has this kind of dork humour but very smart at the same time
• he has many talents which itself aren't very impressive but he's really good at it
• he plays confident and cool but deep down he is really shy and kinda insecure
• he is full of "fun facts" about basically everything
• he has funny habits of talking

• I'm smart
• I'm polite
• I'm optimistic and hopeful in the most of time
• I'm generous and empathetic
• I'm open-minded
• I'm very good at drawing

• I let people put me down too easy
• I can be quite stubborn sometimes
• I'm lazy and barely determinated
• I'm not bold
• I'm not firm enough
• I'm unassertive
• I'm too kind-hearted sometimes and too mean and bitch other times
• I'm self-conscious
• passive-aggressive behavior
• I'm prideful
• I can be quite dramatic at times

• study math ✔
• study chemistry ✔
• study physics ✔
• update my copybook ✘

some of the itens are necessary and some of them aren't exactly necessary

• smartphone ✔
• graduation dress ✔
• a pair of heels ✔
• mouth mask 1 and 2
• dark & wild (1st full album by BTS)
• a pair of sunglasses ✔
• new pair of converse ✔
• a pair of oxfords
• bag
• backpack
• ear cuff 1 and 2
• doctor who necklace
• tony tint delight lipstick
• lolita shoes
• black short wig

• travel the world
• make a road trip with my friends ✔
• learn to play piano
• be an artist
• meet my idols
• celebrate my birthday in The Wizarding World of Harry Potter
• walk in a cherry blossom forest
• ride a car alone with all the windows down and loud music playing
• visit Japan and try the most weird food I can found
• visit the Spring Temple Buddha
• visit the Ushiku Daibutsu

• https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Cg_t-uoW4AAo...
• http://www.lifeinneon.com/games/Player2....

• ❝ Don’t be trapped in someone else's dream.❞ — N.O, BTS
• ❝ Become the main subject of your life that has always been suppressed.❞ — No More Dream, BTS
• ❝ I appreciate the masterpiece that is you because your existence alone is art.❞ — Just One Day, BTS
• ❝ I imagine this all night every day because it’s a meaningless dream anyway.❞ — Just One Day, BTS
• ❝ I want to know you more. An explorer venturing through your deep forest of mystery.❞ — Just One Day, BTS
• ❝ Out of all those words I had to swallow because of the excuse of reality, I’ll pick one and tell it to you for sure.❞ — Just One Day, BTS
• ❝ Let’s meet when the lilies bloom and say goodbye when they wither.❞ — Just One Day, BTS
• ❝ Maybe I bit off more than I could chew.❞ — The Kids Aren't Alright, Fall Out Boy

• constantly listen to new music
• drink coffee every morning
• collecting recipes and cooking them
• taking picture of things/places/people I find interesting/pretty
• everyday skin care routine
• compliment people when I feel like I want to
• being up to date with the tv shows/animes I watch

• Satansoo
• He's so talent, beyond singing like an angel he dances well, he's good at beatbox and his acting is so damn good
• He so short that makes me wanna put him in my pocket
• He is shy but also so sassy
• SATANSOO
• His eyes are so big and so pretty and when he does the puppy eye thing he gets so SQUISHY!!!
• Ah yeah, he's so SQUISHY!!!
• His lips are porn
• Moles!!!
• He expresses his love for the other members by hitting them
• SATANSOO!!! I MEAN, DON'T MESS WITH THIS TINY HUMAN CALLED KYUNGSOO HE KNOWS WHERE TO HIT YOU AND HE WILL
• He may seem arrogant but he is the cutest and the nicest person in the whole world...

• You are special
• I can't stop thinking about you
• The test is going to be all multiple choice questions
• You are so talented
• Your grades are great
• You are approved
• I brought something for you
• You make me happy

• ❝ When you're a kid, they tell you it's all… grow up, get a job, get married, get a house, have a kid, and that's it. But the truth is, the world is so much stranger than that. It's so much darker. And so much madder. And so much better.❞ — Doctor Who
• ❝ Fall in love when you are ready, not when you're lonely.❞ — Unknown
• ❝ The biggest lesson I've learned is, ‘It's okay.’ It's okay for me to be kind to myself. It's okay to be wrong. It's okay to get mad. It's okay to be flawed. It's okay to be happy. It's okay to move on.❞ — Hayley Williams
• ❝ Once you've accepted your flaws, no one can use them against you.❞ — Tyrion Lannister
• ❝ Eyes are distracting. You see too much. You don't see enough.❞ — Hannibal (TV Show)
• ❝ Nothing haunts us like the things we don't say.❞ — Mitch Albom
• ❝ The two most important days in your l... — Mark Twain

in no particular order:

• coffee prince (adjourned)
• love rain ✔ ★★★
• beethoven virus (adjourned) E05
• school 2015 ✔ ★★☆
• producer ✔ ★★☆
• personal taste ✔ ★★☆
• cheese in the trap (ongoing)
• pinocchio
• dream high
• no such thing as nice guys
• flower boy next door
• secret message
• master's sun
• mary stayed out all night
• bride of the century
• 49 days
• healer
• pretty boy
• wild romance
• good doctor

• write a song, and if possibly compose it
• write a poem ✔
• finish my fiction
• draw someone I know in real life ✔

cara de artes; meu hobby predileto é fingir ser cool; tenho doutorado em pagar micos e atualmente curso design

• study math for the final test ✔
• cut my bangs ✔
• do highlights ✔ (it didn't really work but well, I done)
• finish the book "12 doctors, 12 stories"

• make him happy
• be sincere with him anytime
• not broke his heart
• NEW hope he doesn't break mine
• make it work even thought the odds are bad

• use your patience twice, three times if it's really worth it but not more than that
• take care of your appearance even if you're not going out and no one is going to see it

• Addict With A Pen — Twenty One Pilots
• Breakeven — The Script
• Breathe — Paramore
• Car Radio — Twenty One Pilots
• Hate To See Your Heart Break — Paramore
• Hero — Family of the Year
• Hold Me Tight — BTS
• I Know You Built A Time Machine — Gio Mantovani
• In The Mourning — Paramore
• Jet Pack Blues — Fall Out Boy
• Just One Day — BTS
• Kitchen Sink — Twenty One Pilots
• Let Me Know — BTS
• Lies — Marina and the Diamonds
• Outro: Love Is Not Over — BTS
• Mad World — Tears for Fears
• Miracles in December — EXO
• Misguided Ghosts — Paramore
• Moonlight — EXO
• My Answer — EXO
• My Heart — Paramore

I have done one before but it didn't exactly worked, so I'm doing it again. It's almost the same thing but with a few changes.

• don't care about something, someone, anything that is not worth it , don't torture yourself caring too much
• be patient and don't go overboard, everything has its own time, deal with this instead of fucking everything up right from the start
• work hard and you will get what you want, even though it may be tiring and boring, if is going to take you to your goal, if there's a prize worth it in the end then be determinated
• take a stand when it's necessary, speak your mind, make yourself clear, people don't have to know every single thought on your mind, you don't have to reveal everything because some things are better kept with ourselves, but speak up when it's fu...

• he's the king of awkwardness
• he's cute without even trying
• he has such a pretty smile and his laugh is the best
• even though he is aware of how handsome he is, he is absurdly oblivious about how precious and awesome he also is
• he's constantly working hard to do his best in BTS
• he's a gentleman
• he's a good cooker
• he have this obsession over super mario like if he was a little boy but he's actually the oldest of the group
• he's kind and always taking care of the other members
• he's the cutest grown man I've ever seen

• ✔: done
• ✘: canceled of the list/abandoned/given up/failed to comply
• ongoing
• adjourned : to do at another time
• light gray colored list : important
• dark gray colored list : personal
• white colored list : not checked as necessarily important or personal
• classification ☆☆☆: bad
• classification ★☆☆: good
• classification ★★☆: very good
• classification ★★★: awesome/loved it
• replace this text with your list
• begin each item with an asterisk

in no particular order:

• ghost world
• donnie darko
• fight club ✔ ★★★
• girl, interrupted ✔
• the great gatsby (2013) ✔ ★★★
• american psycho ✔
• the girl who leapt through time
• my neighbor totoro ✔
• valley of the dolls
• high fidelity
• gone girl ✔ ★★☆
• hannibal lecter films franchise (must be saw in a particular order):
  • hannibal rising
  • red dragon
  • manhunter
  • silence of the lambs
  • hannibal
• the wind raises

in no particular order:

• bates motel
• suburgatory ✘ (maybe???idk)
• the 100 ✘ (maybe???idk)
• classic who (adjourned)
• red band society ✘
• the office
• freaks and geeks
• mr pickles ✘
• how to get away with murder ✘ (maybe???idk)
• orange is the new black (adjourned) E06