• 750 words
  • cvs (pharmacy pickup)
  • emails - respond/ draft
  • instacart order
  • listography
  • planner (writing goals)
  • website (finish it)
jul 12 2020 ∞
jul 12 2020 +
  • it's difficult to get
  • easy to lose
  • always save
  • don't enjoy it
  • splurge on emotional purchases, especially during holidays
  • get something due to entitlement
  • your family's money is your money. so, ask for a loan and don't pay them back.
  • likewise, don't tell them that you're not paying them back either. instead, accuse them of not having your back like family should.
  • fight and fall out over money
  • making lots of money is out of our reach.
jul 11 2020 ∞
jul 11 2020 +
  • 10 a.m. phone interview
  • 750 words
  • erica's assignment
  • fill out excel (20 companies)
  • listogrpahy
  • post to blog
  • read to page 180 of 'money'
  • schedule meetings
  • shower
  • write proposal
jul 9 2020 ∞
jul 9 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • amazon order (books on copywriting and a romance novel)
  • answer emails
  • call hospital (COVID testing)
  • call unemployment office (weekly updates)
  • find 75 leads
  • laundry
  • listography
  • planner
  • read to page 125 of 'yellow'
  • read workshop submissions
  • review story submissions
jun 22 2020 ∞
jun 22 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • business plan
  • emails
  • listography
  • penzu
  • pitch ideas
  • post to medium (short story)
  • shower
  • website research
jun 17 2020 ∞
jun 17 2020 +
  • at-will employment
  • carnism
  • harassing behavior
  • interviews
  • narciassists
  • not having autonomy/ agency in my life
  • people who are uncertain about developing a relationship with me
  • people who say they don't want a relationship but still stick around/ pursue you
  • racist institutions
  • sending out thousands of job applications
  • working culture
jun 14 2020 ∞
jun 14 2020 +
  • doctor's appointment
  • listography
  • 750 words
  • work on LinkedIn profile
  • read stories
  • read h's story
  • finish reading 'soul'
jun 11 2020 ∞
jun 11 2020 +

Would you....

  • stand for your beliefs? depends on the belief. i think they can change.
  • go vegetarian? i have. i was vegetarian for three years, vegan for 10.
  • argue for a family member? at this point, i wouldn't do it, because they're unlikely to do it for me.
  • edit photos of myself online? i rarely post photos, but i wouldn't change them. either you like what you see or you don't.
  • put up with friends who hated something you supported? and this is what veganism is like. for real, i just don't talk about it with them.
  • befriend someone nice to you but an asshole to other people? this is everyone. i try to be kind to everyone, but i can be an asshole. as long as they are kind to people who haven't done anything to them. like, i couldn't stay friends with someone...
may 31 2020 ∞
may 31 2020 +
  • almond milk
  • cilantro
  • ginger ale
  • lemon juice
  • lotion
  • parsley
  • potatoes (about 2)
  • soap
  • sugar
  • tahini
  • vegetables
  • veggie stock
  • wasabi
may 30 2020 ∞
may 30 2020 +
  • abandonment
  • being around people who want something from me, but they don't like me.
  • criticism from a victimizing standpoint.
  • engaging in relationships where someone doesn't want me completely, but they won't let me go.
  • exhaustion over rebuilding friendships.
  • fear of being discarded.
  • giving disappointing news and then expecting a positive reaction. if i don't react the way they want me to, then they say i've never supported them.
  • never feeling fully wanted or desirable because they secretly want something else.
  • social anxiety
may 19 2020 ∞
may 19 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • blog
  • cold email group call
  • finish website
  • listography
  • read
  • read and edit night
  • speadhsheet (50)
  • stop working at 6
  • therapist
  • unemployment update
  • writing party
jul 13 2020 ∞
jul 13 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • erica's post
  • finish reading
  • instacart (?)
  • listography
  • rumpus review
  • talking circle
  • wash hair
jul 11 2020 ∞
jul 11 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • finish reading book
  • listography
  • meetings
  • rumpus review
  • start filling out dossiers on companies
  • stop working at 7 p.m.
  • write blog post
jul 10 2020 ∞
jul 10 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • blog
  • C4
  • clean emails
  • Find 75 contacts
  • Job Application (Fedwriters)
  • Job Application (Harmonia)
  • listography
  • penzu
  • send pitches
jun 23 2020 ∞
jun 23 2020 +
  • a small house/ condo
  • beautiful surroundings
  • debt free
  • financial security
  • giving back to the community
  • healthy
  • swing dancing
  • teaching
  • traveling to foreign countries 1-2x a year
  • writing/ writers retreats
jun 14 2020 ∞
jun 14 2020 +
  • farideh
  • greg (thesis)
  • lamar
  • sherry (response)
jun 11 2020 ∞
jun 11 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • fb group
  • fix resume
  • listography
  • nails
  • penzu
  • purchase udemy courses
  • send resume
  • wash hair
jun 10 2020 ∞
jun 10 2020 +
  • america's next top model
  • americorps
  • bay area
  • college
  • high school
  • mental hospitals
  • okcupid
  • sex and the city
  • studying abroad
  • the l word
  • xanga/ livejournal
may 30 2020 ∞
may 30 2020 +

On a partner....

  • short hair or long hair? short hair
  • nice smile or abs? smile
  • nice smile or chest? smile
  • shy or open? shy
  • eyes or body? eyes
  • religious or non-religious? spiritual, non-religious
  • caring or non-restricting? caring
  • straight edge or non straight edge? straight edge.
  • piercing or no piercings? no preference
  • tattoos or no tattoos? one or two discreet tattoos are nice.
  • quiet or party type? quiet
  • get along with friends or parents? parents.

Have you ever....

  • drink alcohol until drunk? yes
  • smoked weed? once. i felt really bad abou...
may 28 2020 ∞
may 28 2020 +
  • eventually i want to work for myself
  • i don't want to stay at my current job forever
  • i hate having my boundaries violated
  • i likely suffer from some sort of depression or anxiety disorder
  • i live in nostalgia because i'm terrified of the present and the future
  • i want different material things in my life than i currently have
  • i'd love a partnership and a circle of close friends, but i'm afraid i can't access those things.
may 22 2020 ∞
may 22 2020 +
  • broken promises
  • depression
  • doubt
  • fears/anxiety used against you
  • feeling like you don't fit in
  • guilt trips
  • isolation
  • low self-esteem
  • lying
  • questioning everything
may 19 2020 ∞
may 19 2020 +
  • being naked in front of someone for intimate purposes. i'm okay with being naked for a doctor's exam, but not this.
  • performance anxiety. i won't turn them out or do something their expecting.
  • they'll call all the shots for what they want sexually.
  • pain
  • what i'm expected to say to stroke their ego, even if it feels weird.
  • they won't talk about limits or respect mine.
jul 11 2020 ∞
jul 11 2020 +
  • anxiety
  • deflection
  • depression
  • eating disorders
  • feeling like you're not enough
  • guilt
  • maladaptive coping mechanisms
  • projection
  • trauma bonding
  • victim mentality
jul 10 2020 ∞
jul 10 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • blog
  • comment on fiction pieces
  • listography
  • penzu (blog)
  • read to page 150 of yellow
  • walk
jun 24 2020 ∞
jun 24 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • amazon order
  • content course
  • get 75 leads
  • grocery
  • listography
  • wash hair
jun 20 2020 ∞
jun 20 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • emails
  • feed cats
  • grocery list
  • grocery shop
  • listography
  • mission statement
  • penzu
  • planner (fill out)
  • read 'soul'
jun 14 2020 ∞
jun 14 2020 +
  • cold emails (!)
  • copy some copywriting
  • purchase udemy courses (copy writing, content writing, and SEO)
  • reply to emails
  • startup a website
  • take udemy courses (copy writing, content writing, and SEO)
  • write a blog (steal something from here)
  • write a creative nonfiction essay
  • write a sales page (copywriting)
  • write three pieces for portfolio
jun 10 2020 ∞
jun 10 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • cook veggies
  • critique workshop stories
  • email d.
  • email j.
  • email t.
  • laundry
  • listography
  • pay rent
  • wash hair
  • yoga
may 31 2020 ∞
may 31 2020 +
  • 750 words
  • comment on workshop stories
  • email d (second draft)
  • email j (cathup)
  • email t (catchup)
  • grocery shop
  • laundry
  • listography
  • make bed
  • penzu
  • wash hair
may 30 2020 ∞
may 30 2020 +

Do you...

  • get depressed easily? yes
  • get jealous easily? no. i am quite envious.
  • worried about something important? all the time.
  • feel like listening to music can take your need off things? of course.
  • worry about messing up relationships a lot? not really, because i don't engage in relationships often anymore.
  • try hard in classes at school? i did, usually until the last semester.
  • go out drinking? a few times, but i prefer drinking at home.
  • smoke cigarettes? no
  • smoke weed? don't it once, felt really guilty.
  • do hard drugs? no.
  • why? drugs scare me.
  • believe in god? i believe in a higher pow...
may 26 2020 ∞
may 26 2020 +

Have you ever...

  • accused someone of using you? just about everyone i've dated.
  • attempted suicide? once, when i was 21.
  • avoided some task? lots of tasks, like my taxes.
  • avoided someone? yes, classmates.
  • been depressed? all the time.
  • been to a concert to your favorite artist? yes. jamiroquai
  • been too depressed to get out of bed? often
  • bored? not right now.
  • cried? yes, i think the last time was two months ago.
  • got into a real fight? no, i can't fight
  • gotten drunk/high? a default state when i was in post-secondary education
  • lied to everyone about your feelings? happens a lot at work.
  • self harmed? yes, in college.
may 25 2020 ∞
may 25 2020 +