• 750 words
• cvs (pharmacy pickup)
• emails - respond/ draft
• instacart order
• listography
• planner (writing goals)
• website (finish it)

• it's difficult to get
• easy to lose
• always save
• don't enjoy it
• splurge on emotional purchases, especially during holidays
• get something due to entitlement
• your family's money is your money. so, ask for a loan and don't pay them back.
• likewise, don't tell them that you're not paying them back either. instead, accuse them of not having your back like family should.
• fight and fall out over money
• making lots of money is out of our reach.

• 10 a.m. phone interview
• 750 words
• erica's assignment
• fill out excel (20 companies)
• listogrpahy
• post to blog
• read to page 180 of 'money'
• schedule meetings
• shower
• write proposal

• 750 words
• amazon order (books on copywriting and a romance novel)
• answer emails
• call hospital (COVID testing)
• call unemployment office (weekly updates)
• find 75 leads
• laundry
• listography
• planner
• read to page 125 of 'yellow'
• read workshop submissions
• review story submissions

• 750 words
• business plan
• emails
• listography
• penzu
• pitch ideas
• post to medium (short story)
• shower
• website research

• at-will employment
• carnism
• harassing behavior
• interviews
• narciassists
• not having autonomy/ agency in my life
• people who are uncertain about developing a relationship with me
• people who say they don't want a relationship but still stick around/ pursue you
• racist institutions
• sending out thousands of job applications
• working culture

• doctor's appointment
• listography
• 750 words
• work on LinkedIn profile
• read stories
• read h's story
• finish reading 'soul'

Would you....

• stand for your beliefs? depends on the belief. i think they can change.
• go vegetarian? i have. i was vegetarian for three years, vegan for 10.
• argue for a family member? at this point, i wouldn't do it, because they're unlikely to do it for me.
• edit photos of myself online? i rarely post photos, but i wouldn't change them. either you like what you see or you don't.
• put up with friends who hated something you supported? and this is what veganism is like. for real, i just don't talk about it with them.
• befriend someone nice to you but an asshole to other people? this is everyone. i try to be kind to everyone, but i can be an asshole. as long as they are kind to people who haven't done anything to them. like, i couldn't stay friends with someone...

• almond milk
• cilantro
• ginger ale
• lemon juice
• lotion
• parsley
• potatoes (about 2)
• soap
• sugar
• tahini
• vegetables
• veggie stock
• wasabi

• abandonment
• being around people who want something from me, but they don't like me.
• criticism from a victimizing standpoint.
• engaging in relationships where someone doesn't want me completely, but they won't let me go.
• exhaustion over rebuilding friendships.
• fear of being discarded.
• giving disappointing news and then expecting a positive reaction. if i don't react the way they want me to, then they say i've never supported them.
• never feeling fully wanted or desirable because they secretly want something else.
• social anxiety

• 750 words
• blog
• cold email group call
• finish website
• listography
• read
• read and edit night
• speadhsheet (50)
• stop working at 6
• therapist
• unemployment update
• writing party

• 750 words
• erica's post
• finish reading
• instacart (?)
• listography
• rumpus review
• talking circle
• wash hair

• 750 words
• finish reading book
• listography
• meetings
• rumpus review
• start filling out dossiers on companies
• stop working at 7 p.m.
• write blog post

• 750 words
• blog
• C4
• clean emails
• Find 75 contacts
• Job Application (Fedwriters)
• Job Application (Harmonia)
• listography
• penzu
• send pitches

• a small house/ condo
• beautiful surroundings
• debt free
• financial security
• giving back to the community
• healthy
• swing dancing
• teaching
• traveling to foreign countries 1-2x a year
• writing/ writers retreats

• farideh
• greg (thesis)
• lamar
• sherry (response)

• 750 words
• fb group
• fix resume
• listography
• nails
• penzu
• purchase udemy courses
• send resume
• wash hair

• america's next top model
• americorps
• bay area
• college
• high school
• mental hospitals
• okcupid
• sex and the city
• studying abroad
• the l word
• xanga/ livejournal

On a partner....

• short hair or long hair? short hair
• nice smile or abs? smile
• nice smile or chest? smile
• shy or open? shy
• eyes or body? eyes
• religious or non-religious? spiritual, non-religious
• caring or non-restricting? caring
• straight edge or non straight edge? straight edge.
• piercing or no piercings? no preference
• tattoos or no tattoos? one or two discreet tattoos are nice.
• quiet or party type? quiet
• get along with friends or parents? parents.

Have you ever....

• drink alcohol until drunk? yes
• smoked weed? once. i felt really bad abou...

• eventually i want to work for myself
• i don't want to stay at my current job forever
• i hate having my boundaries violated
• i likely suffer from some sort of depression or anxiety disorder
• i live in nostalgia because i'm terrified of the present and the future
• i want different material things in my life than i currently have
• i'd love a partnership and a circle of close friends, but i'm afraid i can't access those things.

• broken promises
• depression
• doubt
• fears/anxiety used against you
• feeling like you don't fit in
• guilt trips
• isolation
• low self-esteem
• lying
• questioning everything

• being naked in front of someone for intimate purposes. i'm okay with being naked for a doctor's exam, but not this.
• performance anxiety. i won't turn them out or do something their expecting.
• they'll call all the shots for what they want sexually.
• pain
• what i'm expected to say to stroke their ego, even if it feels weird.
• they won't talk about limits or respect mine.

• anxiety
• deflection
• depression
• eating disorders
• feeling like you're not enough
• guilt
• maladaptive coping mechanisms
• projection
• trauma bonding
• victim mentality

• 750 words
• blog
• comment on fiction pieces
• listography
• penzu (blog)
• read to page 150 of yellow
• walk

• 750 words
• amazon order
• content course
• get 75 leads
• grocery
• listography
• wash hair

• 750 words
• emails
• feed cats
• grocery list
• grocery shop
• listography
• mission statement
• penzu
• planner (fill out)
• read 'soul'

• cold emails (!)
• copy some copywriting
• purchase udemy courses (copy writing, content writing, and SEO)
• reply to emails
• startup a website
• take udemy courses (copy writing, content writing, and SEO)
• write a blog (steal something from here)
• write a creative nonfiction essay
• write a sales page (copywriting)
• write three pieces for portfolio

• 750 words
• cook veggies
• critique workshop stories
• email d.
• email j.
• email t.
• laundry
• listography
• pay rent
• wash hair
• yoga

• 750 words
• comment on workshop stories
• email d (second draft)
• email j (cathup)
• email t (catchup)
• grocery shop
• laundry
• listography
• make bed
• penzu
• wash hair

Do you...

• get depressed easily? yes
• get jealous easily? no. i am quite envious.
• worried about something important? all the time.
• feel like listening to music can take your need off things? of course.
• worry about messing up relationships a lot? not really, because i don't engage in relationships often anymore.
• try hard in classes at school? i did, usually until the last semester.
• go out drinking? a few times, but i prefer drinking at home.
• smoke cigarettes? no
• smoke weed? don't it once, felt really guilty.
• do hard drugs? no.
• why? drugs scare me.
• believe in god? i believe in a higher pow...

Have you ever...

• accused someone of using you? just about everyone i've dated.
• attempted suicide? once, when i was 21.
• avoided some task? lots of tasks, like my taxes.
• avoided someone? yes, classmates.
• been depressed? all the time.
• been to a concert to your favorite artist? yes. jamiroquai
• been too depressed to get out of bed? often
• bored? not right now.
• cried? yes, i think the last time was two months ago.
• got into a real fight? no, i can't fight
• gotten drunk/high? a default state when i was in post-secondary education
• lied to everyone about your feelings? happens a lot at work.
• self harmed? yes, in college.