lucas lallemant ,, makoto edamura ,,, u r so dear 2 me

in the ninotes rn to talk about the greatness that is the anime ‘great pretender’, makoto and edaurent. like they have been on the mind so frequently recently n it genuinely makes me ill thinking about them like i genuinely love them so bed and the messages within the anime makes me ill and omg i just love them??? like the anime is so perfect /gen and like as much as i love this anime and i wish it got the flowers it deserved im so glad it hasn’t reached the mainstream audience bc the nonexistent media literacy that these bitches has is beyond me. like i see awful takes in the tiktok comments and on reddit and im like “oh so we didnt watch the same show huh”.

i think why this show resonates with me so much is that i think that thematically, the struggle with the is concept of change and holding onto the past/nostalgia, which are the overarching topics in grepre...

as i sit in the comfort of my own silence, what consumes me is my understanding of love or the lack of thereof. what i can never truly understand is the way the human heart works and how we love another. as i reflect on myself and who i am, i only know that i am a mosaic of everything i have ever loved and what is unknown will remain unknown until i encounter these feelings.

i only have ever known love for what it is right now; to be blissful and to be content. to be so lucky to be in love with someone that loves me back, within the same capacity in the same timeline, i will honestly never take for granted how special this time is.

however with what i struggle with is, and what i will always struggle with, is the unknown, no matter how hard i try to tell myself its fruitless. my brain will conjure up scenarios that will suffocate me ...