- being around strangers makes me feel uncomfortable, and as such, i really relish being alone, or at least in a space that i can be comfortable and feel like i can be myself. so, in that regard, my alone time is very important to me, but more than that, just not feeling drained, because i can spend 24/7 with someone and feel fine, if they do not drain me.
- i really favor the feeling of freedom and independence. it is the type of environment in which i thrive in. jobs, people, or places that feel constricting, negative, or degrading immediately put me off and i pretty much continuously ruminate on the idea of leaving and, most of the time, do.
- i put up with a lot of crap before i finally snap, and when i do snap, it usually results in hours long venting session. when the person whom i'm upset with doesn't want to or cannot indulge me, i feel extremely hurt and abandoned and feel the need to terminate the relationship even though that isn't what i truly want, results vary.
- i'm kind of a huge pushover. i don't assert myself, say no, or set boundaries with someone who i feel there would be a (real or imagined) conflict with. i shy away from conflict until the moment (if and when) i 'snap'. in my mind, if its a really insignificant thing, then whatever. i can just let it go... sometimes.
- i'm a verbal person. i'm good with expressing my feelings, good and bad, when i want to, i can cut someone deep with my words. mars in gemini in 10th; however, often i don't do that. on the plus side, i'm a good person to have a conversation with, and to listen to you, but at the same time i find it difficult to explain why i feel the way i do sometimes.
apr 8 2021 ∞
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