memories i would want to keep if i somehow lost everything and/or had to choose what i could keep

• first of all, my father's voice
• the magic tricks my father used to do to make candy appear for me
• that night i had the worst earache and i was crying so much, then i went to the living room where my father was wathing tv and layed on his lap for a while and he rubbed my back. a few minutes later, i was better again and could finally sleep
• when my brother wanted me to swim to reach him and kept getting everytime farther from me and i was swallowing more and more water and tired but it was fun
• when i used to talk about farts with my babysitter
• when fernanda brought dominiq home and i was so in love with him that my mom had to let him stay
• the three first times i met fernanda and she scared me and i screamed, and she was afraid my brother didn't like it and would never talk to her again because she scared his sister
• all the jokes i have with my mom
• the day i met jonathan for the first time in real life. i was so anxious, and when i saw him standing at the gates of my house i ran towards him and kissed his face so much while he was paying the taxist
• our first kiss
• when fernanda said she and my brother like me enough to share their brigadeiros with me
• every special occasion when fernanda hugs me and all the best wishes she whispers for me
• all the jokes and words i have made with jonathan (sudati, mori, jaspion, jesus and winter and your call, povas,
• rebecca's smile and her laugh and her cute voice
• the first time i rode a bike
• karaoke with my brother
• that moment of shame when everyone was screaming my name at my 3rd birthday party after singing "happy birthday to you" and i was pointing at myself, when i realized what i was doing i tried to hide behind the first person i found (thinking about that now, it's pretty funny)
• when i was looking at my photographs when i was 3 i said i looked like i was "almost a woman"
• how i used to be in love with myself and i thought that i was so pretty
• that time we went to the beach and i digged that huge ass hole in the sand (idk, it was fun)
• rebecca declaiming josé on skype for me, cause i never heard about that poem before
• allan doing "da face". everyday he looks even more like me in a good way
• when allan was very young and he saw me getting dressed and said "eu sei que você é uma princesa, jessica", and since then he have been calling me "linda princesa" or "minha rainha". it makes me feel i'm beautiful even though i don't think so
• when my brother used to carry me sitting on the handlebar of his bicycle, plus the day we went to the skate lane and i fell really hard and hurt my knee and it was bleeding. he brought me home as fast as he could. today i realize how much he cared for me
• when my dad used to take me to the movies and he used to sleep for almost the whole movie, and i kept poking him and saying "dad, did you see that?"
• labour pain and complete panic
• throwing up in the sink every morning during pregnancy
• college sunsets
• gatita's death
• doing my first tattoo
• the first time i bleached my entire hair
• piercing my lip
• the day i got into college
• my senpai walking around the room during class to see if we were doing our stuff
• alberto's toothless smiles
• falling asleep cuddling robson that afternoon and that was the purest thing
• going to JB alone
• walking downtown w/ caos and selling his old stuff in thrift shops