you can't take and take, even if you feel like you are yet to become full. and yet again, kindness is not a weakness-- it's not throwing yourself the moment you become needed, or desiring to be someone people can call upon. you do the most for others, but you do nothing for yourself. when was the last time you chose YOU???????? and when was the last time that felt truly, honestly good? you felt that other people's problems were so big that yours could hide behind them, and now it is your truth, and you hate yourself for it. do not hate your kindness, cher. hate what it has turned you into.

• angel tamagotchi
• dramamine, modest mouse
• pinky st figurines
• pablo neruda
• angel blue
• touken ranbu
• enora le guillou

when i think about all the things i have gone through last year, i feel like i can afford to be happy about anything now. or at least i can give my self that without feeling bad about it. i no longer want to live in regret, in sadness for the things that i am not, in envy over the things i see that other people can be, and in yearning to be somewhere else. in truth, i am so proud of myself. so proud of how far i have gone, so proud that i have not hurt anyone in the process, so proud that i am still alive and so proud that i am in capacity to finally be grateful for it. i am happy to meet everyone, and to be surrounded by people who appreciate me even if i cannot comprehend the love that they have for me fully. perhaps the thing i need to work the most on is letting love in. (((despite being full of it))) ((in spite of being full))

• what did you learn about yourself in 2023? in what ways did you get closer to yourself?

i learned to accept the sentimental and sensitive side of myself, and to hold the side of my self that wants to run away as close as possible. i know why i run away. i got closer to myself by actively tending to my own needs and accepting my weak moments as time still spent with the world. i realized that there is so much that i'm capable of.

• what do you want to leave behind?

i want to leave the part of me that tries to be small, but also the part of me that tries to be someone else for other people. i'm always conscious of the way others think of me, but in that sense i am forgetting who i truly am by being someone i do not fully resonate with. i want to ho...

• lets pretend we're bunny rabbits, the magnetic fields
• 2 headed bear
• angel boy
• ironic kaworu nagisa tattoo
• my dogs Again
• love 3x
• something ryo asuka gaylord crazy ass gatorade xanax run
• i will never succumb to froggycore
• more clovers

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long walks to nowhere, tiny houses, bedroom stars, watching the apocalypse, angels, ear aches, changing, changing. there is part of me in everyone i know and part of them that exists within me, part of me that yearns for the past, part of me that looks for the same pain in other people. i will always exist in this certain flow of sadness, in giving it meaning , without it i am nothing.

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