july 1st: (mad bc I would have started this the last day of school but my frans failed to inform a brotha) made potato salad and pan toasted bread/watched vids for a while/did makeup and took dumb photos with jil/customized my listography and then real life Rome snapchatted me and rip hope.

july 2nd: sat on my butt all day/ did donnas makeup/ went to chipotable and hastings wit jil faith and donna/ ended up staying up all night with cassidy watching a live award show and crying about bangtan

july 3rd: woke up at like 3 in the afternoon, hung around at Jillian's for a while and then all went back to my moms house where I saw my cousin jennifer for the first time in like 3 years/ unexpectedly found her sick husband and 2 children asleep in my room when I got home/ met her daughter for the first time and i love her sm/ me faith jillian jace and jennifer (another J3) all piled into faiths room/ me and Jen slept on an air mattress and then risen from the dead when a drunk Tammy knocked on the window at like /whatever time it was/

july 4th: had a huge partay at my crib with all my fam/ chilled all day and then watched a $500 fire work show in my backyard/ took and hid a grand total of 80 sparklers along with 20 different other little fireworks because the 5 year olds were taking aLL OF THEM/ played go to the head of the class with fam and never even finished/ piled MORE people into the room that night

july 5th: watched kids all day/ everyone else went on the boat for a well needed adult day away from the chitlins/ ryan whined basically the whole day bc he couldn't share/ he proceeds to bite down on faiths finger but didn't "realize" that he shouldn't use all of his mouth strength/ izzy got a splinter on the pool deck and literally bawled her eyes out bc she was so scared even though it was the easiest splinter to get out ever/ tried to convince her to let me get it out for well over an hour but that wasn't successful/ she waited for her mom to get there and we bribed her with everything under the sun and she still was not letting anyone touch it/ she ended up taking her to the hospital the next day so thEy could get it out/ spent a good hour and a half trying to sync my music back to my phone and finally got it after deleting actually everything

july 6th: jennifer and her fam left that morning:-/ we went into town got my moms doctors appointment/ me and faith walked around bed bath and beyond waiting for my mom to get done/ was so excited bc I haven't been in there in a really long time/ got even more excited bc I found a vanity mirror that I've been looking around for/ (didn't buy it bc like $200 but still know where there sold at)/ chilled at home for the rest of the nizzle

july 7th: watched jace and painted an anchor most of the day/ caught up on the Bachlorette and was so mAD THAT NICK IS STILL THERE/ idek what else I'm late at updating

july 8th: WOKE UP TO JILLIAN TELLING ME SHE GOT BANGTAN TICKETS WHICH SHE WAS PREVIOUSLY CONFUSED ABOUT BC THERE WAS ONLY SHIRTS ON SALE BUT THEN REALIZED THE SHIRTS WERE TICKETS AND I BAWLED MY EYES OUT WHEN SHE TOLD ME THERE WAS A HIGH TOUCH BECAUSE UP CLOSE REAL LIFE TOUCH BANGTAN/ JHOPE/ broke Cassidy the news and freaked out for the 8th time/ calmed down/ went to Carina's going away party and ending up staying until 12:30am/ i luv her so much I don't want her to leave/ went home and stayed up until 5:30am working on a gift to her and painting some more

july 9th: woke up "early"/ had a dream that tommy (who turned into andy sixx) loved me but had a boyfriend and was sorry that he couldn't see me as much bc of his bf/ he then showed me how to smoke weird purple meth out of a tiny glass bottle/ -->irl/ came to the lake and spent most of the day on the boat and it was literally the prettiest day ever/ attempting to read while floating around but couldn't concentrate bc the sun was beating down but was worried about getting a sun glass tan line/ came back to the camper and ate food/ fell asleep around 9:30 but woke up around 11 and it's now 1am and im updating this log :-)

july 10th: had pancakes for breakfast/ chilled for a while/ didn't go on the boat today/ sat outside with sliv and painted/ (was seriously like 100 degrees)/ got in the pool which felt so good bc hot day/ ate din then watched Another Cinderella Story with sliv /taught her how to play rumy/ i don't even remember what happened next I really need to update these the day of

july 11th: went out on Gina's boat instead today/ it went so fast and nice/ was a really good day/ went to get Silvia to get on the boat with us/ we sat on the dock for 15 minutes waiting/ they left us/ rude/ chilled in the camper with sliv and played uno and speed/ watched my life in ruins/ jenna came to the camper/ talked to her for a while and was cracking up at when you touch noses you look like you have one eye/ eventually caught some Z's

july 12th: had breakfast burritos/ went out on the boat/ got really sunburnt/ washed my hair in the lake/ felt at one with nature/ :-)/ came back and cleaned up/ did my makeup/ finished my letter and painting for carina/ came back to the crib/ started watching mulan with fam but left bc no space in the bed & have to wake up early/ laying in my room now updating ^^^

july 13th: woke up at 6am/ went to Carina's to say goodbye and give her her gift/ chilled at the house/ listened to bangtan's new album and cleaned my room/ went out in town with my mom and faith/ went to Arby's Tuesday Morning, and Goodwill/ stayed out and about for a good 5 hours/ got dropped off at my dads/ chilled for a lil while wit him and faith / we all came to Jillian's and lit off fireworks/ some woman came and cussed at us bc fireworks/ lmao okay/ it was fun/ now just chillin

july 14th: woke up at literally 1pm/ got ready/ went to jils senior photo appointment/ got boba/ and cookies/ and donuts/ :-)/ started watching vids/ freaked about bangtan/ again/ watched inception/ missing him

july 15th: watched half of the 2nd episode of SMTM 4 with jil/ hannah picked us up from the house/ missed her/ avoided a cop bc expired tags/ got boba with cass/ missed her/ tried a coconut boba today/ all came back to cassidy's/ been hanging around and catching up/ missed them so much/ ordered chinese food/ played truth or truth/ "taehyung could fuck me in the toe"/ cracked up a lot/ put lipstick on each other with our mouths/

july 16th: hung out at cass's house for a while/ got ready/ did my eyebrows with cassidy's god given beautiful eyebrow brush/ on the way home the car broke down/ spent a good hour hanging around at the gas station drinking an 89¢ fountain drink/ :-)/ all my friends met each other/ later/ got so overwhelmed and bawled my eyes out over all the chaos about TRBinNYC/ :-(/ had a shower/ feeling better now/ about to watch SMTM

july 17th: woke up at 2/ went to the carpet store/ literally did nothing all day

july 18th: weird mood most of the day/ been watching the heirs

july 19th: went to cheathem dam with fam and squad/ went to Pizza Hut and ordered everything

july 20th: went shopping and then got Taco Bell/ stayed up till 5 and had to get up at 8

july 21th: senior pics at 10:30 am/ was uncomfortable lot of the time/ hopefully they turned out good/ got home and napped/ ate dinner/ napped again

july 22th: chilled all day/ went to the camper and cleaned the outside of it

july 23th: cleaned my room rly good/ carol came over/ just been chillin all day/ watched What A Girl Wants

july 24th: hung out with carol/ packed and cleaned/ came to the lake/ watched rush hour with squad

july 25th: had a dream that bangtan was at the lake on the boat dock/ and jungkook was in love with me/ <irl>/ did Jessica's wedding makeup/ went to the wedding/kenny rode in on the 4wheeler/ got on the boat/ chillin out/ CAke/ watched the 1D movie/ loudly sung old jams with squad alone in the camper/ stayed up with mom talking for 2 hours

july 26th: got out on the boat/ tubed/ it started raining so we went in/ looked at a huge house boat/ it was so nice/ met some really nice people/ ate dinner/ came back to the camper/ stressed out/ took a nap/ ate everything/ played basketball/ showed jil's mom around everywhere/ stayed up until 4:30 am/ zZz

july 27th: had many dreams/ one of which being that bangtan was on a big boat and I was on a little boat and I jumped in and was like "come on come on" and so jhope jumped in with me and I pulled him underwater and kissed him and then he pulled me back underwater and kissed me and omg/ <irl>/ been surfing thru twitter looking at a bunch of stuff from TRBinLA/ already sad thinking about my concert being over

july 28th: painted all day/ chilled afterwards/ nathan came over/ squad made peanut butter cookies in a mug

july 29th: woke up at like 1/ made coffee/ did my makeup/ watched SMTM/ starting rewatching the O.C/ <--- serious nostalgia/ Zzz

july 30th: god i dont remember

july 31st: wow i really dont know

august 1st: im such an asshole

august 2nd: why didnt i update when i should have

august 3rd: now this happens

august 4th: im sure i did nothing

august 6th: thanks hope

august 7th: chilled all day/ came to the lake/ made brownies

august 8th: met jens bf fam/ went on boat/ ate rly good din

august 9th: woke up to faith telling me she has a bug in her ear:-/ ate a biscuit with a pancake, egg, and syrup on it for breakfast/ it was yum/ went on the boat/ cleaned and came back home/ searched 4 O.C for the millionth time/ couldn't find it/ again/ fell asleep thinking about hoseok

august 10th: went to the doctor for faiths ear/ worked with dad/ ate burritos/ dyed my hair pink/ first last day of high school tomorrow/ which means this guy "should" be over/ i dont think it will be/ *continues this for the rest of my life*/ gonna look up some colleges

august 11th: first day was pretty good/ excited for the year/ painted all day

august 12th: chilled basically all day/ full day of school 2morrow/ jil took pics of me which i'll post here eventually :-)

august 13th: skool was good/ got an ass load of papers/ painted the rest of the day

august 14th: school school school/ fucking rome snapchatted me in the middle of class/ freaked out/ the last thing i said to him was "you're so fine it makes me sick"/ he literally goes "i hope you really don't get sick though!!:)"/ hes in love with me i know

august 15th: finally the weekend/ had a dream that i won a contest and bangtan was staying the night @ my house/ rap mon was on my lap and i was carrying him around?? i dont know but he loved me!!!! / went looking 4 jhope and found him doing some girl in my guest room?????????/ freaked out/ later he tried to feel me up bc he knew i was mad/ he sucks/ suga hated me/ mad bc i couldnt speak to anyone other than rap mon bc my dumb ass dont speak korean/ that about it/ <irl>/ watched 8 episodes of SMTM/ had coffee with coffee icecream in it/ also had drumsticks

august 16th: house hunted today/ ate veg burger from burger king/ updating my listography/ cant decide if im hungry or not/ probably not

august 17th: met new kpop friend jasie!!!! she the bomb.com

august 18th: went to grams house/ she made me potato soup :'-) mmm

august 19th: watched new ep of America's Next Top Model when i woke up/ talked to jasie on the phone/ ate din

august 20th: skool/ watched skin wars finale/ idk what else

august 21st:

august 22nd: idk but home movies all night w/ faith and mom !!!

august 23rd: made zucchini and eggs for breakfast/ attempted to start writing my essay/ watched a few episodes of catfish/ played pac man on a hand held controller thing/ started watching more home movies/cassie and the baby came over/ chit chatted w/ them/should probably write my essay now

august 24th: lazy/ wrote a lot of my essay outside w/ mom and coffee/ went to sister's house/ chilled/ bought a yellow binder and green notebook/ currently forcing myself to like green/ finished my essay at like 12am

august 25th: sick af/ skool/ ran out the door with basically no makeup on:-/ jasie brought me some eyeliner/ its not even faded and its like 14 hours later??/ went to grams/ made pb chocolate chip truffles!!!!/ literally couldn't taste anything tho so fml/ can taste a lil now/ finally ate some truffles/ need to read 4 english but i rly don't want to/ need to take a shower but i rly don't want to

went to school/ looking up college info in library everyday/ i'm getting somewhat somewhere/ idk/ still don't know shit/ got home and drove to store/ ate dinner watched ANTM and weird new Skin Wars things/ finished homework/ fell asleep while reading/ Zzz

school/ ate breakfast/ yogurt and granola/ jasie found another kpop fan at our school and im like???? how???/ cracked up with ryan in art/ as usual/ ate avocado on toast/ went to jils open house wit her/ talked to jasie on the phone 4 like 15 minutes/ drove home/ ate salad/ played with bella/ got clothes picked out and zzz

pep rally today/ apparently my dress was 2 short/ says the principal/ <ok>/ had to get clothes or sit in iss/ no one was home so i haD TO SIT in iss for an hour until faith came to mY RESCUE WITH CLOthes these 2 girls offered me to wear/ was so

24th: pep