• his perfume
• his voice (deep and raspy)
  • and when he lowers it to talk to me... ugh
• his smile
  • and perfect teeth
• his manners
  • like protecting me from the harsh cold
• his french
• the way he looks at me
• the little things he notices about me
• his views on life and marriage
• how he speaks
• he respects me
• he likes my perfume
• when he stares at my lips
• his humour
• he likes my humour
• he said i'm very cute when i explain things and when i'm focusing on something
• he thinks i'm charming, cute, quiet, very intelligent, that i have character and a beautiful smile
• we have a lot in common
• HE LIKES ME! or so i think

BUT

• all these things aside, i'm still not sure about his feelings towards me, idk if he's sincere or just passing time. i fear it's a hoax and as soon as i'll leave he'll sweet-talk the next beautiful girl that'll come after me; or if he meets someone more interesting. i have a huge insecurity when it comes to guys and cheating. once i'm sure he loves me i think all these doubts will vanish, but for now i feel like i'm liking him more than i should, i spent the weekend thinking about him but at the same time wondering if he has ever thought about me, maybe he already has someone or he met a girl during the weekend...
• i'm probably blowing things out of proportion and he's already crazy about me
• for the first time in forever a man approached me and is courting me. Y. ruined my dreams of finding a good guy who craves my company
• my bff tells me to not care and bask in the happiness he's making me feel, but idk if it's worth the pain and heartbreak i'll experience later when my fears take life. i really really deeply from every fiber of my soul wish that this is not fake, that he's falling for me the same way i'm falling for him; slowly and intensely. idk if i can take it if it's not.
• on of my biggest fear is that someday during these upcoming three weeks he'll stop talking to me or discovers smth that he doesn't like and stop flirting
• another one is him not asking for my number

please God don't let it be a hoax like the so many guys before him.