< when I try to find my inner peace >

• Cold mornings
• Tea
• Bath tubs
• Warm my hands in hot drinks
• Good old movies
• Spend the night awake
• Wake up really early
• Breakfasts
• Cats
• walks in forests
• meditating in a garden
• Halloween
• Rabbits
• Friendly people
• Snow globes
• Carrousels
• Silent fireworks
• When people say they remembered me for any (good) reason
• Sweet and fresh smells

books

• Lolita (Vladmir Nabokov)
• Clockwork orange (Anthony Burgess)
• Psycho (Robert Bloch)
• Matilda (Roald Dahl)
• The melancholy death of oyster boy and other stories (Tim Burton)
• Alice in Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)

movies

• Kill Bill (1 and 2)
• Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• Rumor has it...
• 10 things I hate about you
• Stealing beauty
• Empire Records
• Basic Instinct

• alone with everybody, Charles Bukowski
• enivrez-vous, Charles Baudeleire
• todas as cartas de amor são ridículas, Álvaro de Campos (Fernando Pessoa)
• vida, Augusto Branco
• vozes-mulheres, Conceição Evaristo
• minha boca também..., Ana Cristina César
• pronominais, Oswald de Andrade
• prelúdios-intensos para os desmemoriados do amor, Hilda Hilst
• bluebird, Charles Bukowski
• for the hearts that worry instead of beat, Xoe Arabella
• explaining my depression to my mother: a conversation, Sabrina Benaim
• hi, i'm a slut, Savannah Brown
• fantastic breasts and where to find them, Brenna Twohy
• anxiety: a ghost story, Brenna Twohy
• the person i ought to be, Xoe Arabella
• talking shit to sadness, Sara Brickman

• rain in dry earth
• vanilla
• Lush products
• daisies
• lavender
• chai
• ginger
• sweet smells
• cinnamon
• mornings
• sea
• fresh smells

• Fire cracking
• Purr
• Rain
• Wind in trees
• Steps
• Sea
• Water running

• rainy days listen music while sitting in my table drinking tea reading a book
• sunbathing
• feeling nostalgic
• planning my future
• feeling loved
• feeling productive
• feeling calm while hanging with my friends
• feeling adventurous
• staying home watching movies
• kissing
• waiting in the airport to go home
• traveling

• dye my hair
• search for new artists
• visit museums
• go for a walk
• play with animals
• drink tea
• watch candles burn
• observe nature
• study biology
• read on my armchair
• listen old vinyls
• dance, sing and act
• tarot

Juno, 4 de agosto de 2001

• pronomes femininos
• bissexual (mas prefiro meninas)
• ovolactovegetariana since 2015
• bruxa aprendiz
• olhos castanhos/amendoados, agressivamente branca, cabelo cinza e azul
• futura bióloga
• canhota
• eu assusto fácil
• já tive dois dinossauros. foi daora.

Juno, 19 ♀ <not my real name>

hazel eyes, pale, blue hair, 165cm

• photography, literature, poetry, botany, zoology, dinossaurs, nature, art, sci-fi, space odysseys, ocean, vynils, cinematography, witchcraft, hippie, theater, grunge, instability

• ride a motorbike
• drove a car
• had my own house
• fired a gun
• made a tattoo
• ride a bike
• went paddling down the street
• been to Europe
• done a road trip
• got married
• done yoga
• had a bank account (non attached to my parents)
• went camping
• been on a diet
• been in a vernissage
• traveled alone
• stayed the whole night in the street
• went to a bar
• went to a movie theater alone
• went to a concert alone

august 4th 2001; 1h14 pm

• sun : leo
• moon : aquarius
• rising : sagitarius
• venus : cancer
• mercury : leo
• mars : sagitarius
• jupiter : cancer
• saturn : gemini
• uranus : aquarius
• neptune : aquarius
• pluto : sagitarius
• chiron : sagitarius
• lilith : aquarius
• north node : cancer
• vertex : taurus

< reasons to don't commit suicide and what to do instead >

• don't jump in front of a train, a lot of people will get late if you do it. Get into the train, go home and take a cold shower
• don't cut your wrists, do you want the last scene you will see in your life is you all bloody? Besides, someone will have to clean the mess, so go for a walk in your own house (but stay away from the kitchen)
• don't take a lot of pills, you will probably trow up and it will be gross and unhealthy. Eat or drink water instead.
• don't jump from the top of a building, you can fall in someone's head. Lay on floor and breathe.

stay alive

• Live in another country
• Do a trip every year
• Be a biologist
• Raise kids (don't need to be mine)
• Build a farm house
• Stay healthy and emotionally stable
• Be a funny aunt that teach science
• Be who I am without feeling intimidated
• Be financially independent
• Feel free

• be good - Max Brodie
• murder of birds - Jesca Hoop ft. Guy Gar...
• love me tender - Elvis Presley
• quiet corners and empty spaces - The Jay...
• something good - Alt-J
• lua - Bright Eyes
• trousers - Nina Nesbitt
• Arabella - Arctic Monkeys
• R U mine? - Arctic Monkeys
• Wanted to be loved - Daniel Ahearn
• tonight you belong to me - Eddie Vedder ...
• space oddity - David Bowie
• drive-in Saturday - David Bowie
• love me - Elvis Presley
• black beauty - Lana del Rey
• all you need - Lana del Rey
• wish you were here - Pink Floyd
• yesterday - The Beatles
• habits remix - Tove Lo - Hippie Sabotage...
• happy little pill - Troye Silvan
• west coast - Lana del Rey

< to do every day >

• compliment at least three people
• eat at least two fruits
• read more
• look myself in the mirror
• remember to forgive
• have unusual days
• sing in the shower
• focus on my goals
• save money
• look in the eyes
• try to make someone smile
• say "i love you"
• believe in love
• write or draw my feelings when necessary
• learn a new word
• not be afraid to do what i want
• be thankful for the small things

< take my hand, take my whole life too >

• go to an amusement park
• make you a dinner at my place
• eat ice cream at ben&jerry's
• surprise you with your favourite flower
• take (a lot) of pictures
• play guitar for you
• stare at the stars
• watch old rom-coms
• kiss you at new year
• travel every-fucking-where
• dance to old records
• tell mom about you
• play snooker at a grunge bar

• drive a car
• have at least 4 different funny colours in my hair [4/4]
• try something with weed
• smoke pot
• visit at least 4 countries [1/4]
• live in another state
• live in another country
• have any exotic animal
• drag myself
• go to the California pride parade
• do a DJ/VJ course
• have my own house
• speak a third language
• get my driver's license
• be financially independent

• draw better
• take care of animals and plants
• sing, dance and act at the same time
• play piano and guitar perfectly
• work on my photography skills
• write deep poems
• sew
• tarot, meditation and teology
• spanish, french, german and japanese
• improve my makeup skills

• Van Gogh
• Magritte
• Tara McPherson
• Mark Ryden
• Audrey Kawasaki
• Nicoletta Ceccoli
• Margaret Keane
• Gaudí
• Glenn Barr
• Tim Walker
• Alexander McQueen
• Chuck Grant

• why not if you want to?
• you will make kids believe in magic
• you will make friends
• you will get a lot of smiles
• people will think that you're awesome
• there are so many colours out there, why would you limit yourself so much?

fall :

• see the rain falling
• see the trees without leaves
• read good books with more disposition

winter :

• hot drinks
• spent a time in the bath tub
• have an excuse to bring blankets everywhere
• hug people
• wear boots
• go out without getting tan
• wear pretty coats

spring :

• take pretty photos of flowers that are starting to blossom
• eat berries
• lay in the ground without freezing
• do morning workouts with a little bit of ...