< when I try to find my inner peace >

• Cold mornings
• Tea
• Bath tubs
• Warm my hands in hot drinks
• Good old movies
• Spend the night awake
• Wake up really early
• Breakfasts
• Cats
• Halloween
• Rabbits
• Friendly people
• Snow globes
• Carrousels
• Free hugs
• Silent fireworks
• When people say they remembered me for any (good) reason
• Sweet and fresh smells
• Cinnamon rolls

• alone with everybody, Charles Bukowski
• enivrez-vous, Charles Baudeleire
• todas as cartas de amor são ridículas, Álvaro de Campos (Fernando Pessoa)
• vida, Augusto Branco
• vozes-mulheres, Conceição Evaristo
• minha boca também..., Ana Cristina César
• pronominais, Oswald de Andrade
• prelúdios-intensos para os desmemoriados do amor, Hilda Hilst
• bluebird, Charles Bukowski
• for the hearts that worry instead of beat, Xoe Arabella
• explaining my depression to my mother: a conversation, Sabrina Benaim
• hi, i'm a slut, Savannah Brown
• fantastic breasts and where to find them, Brenna Twohy
• anxiety: a ghost story, Brenna Twohy
• the person i ought to be, Xoe Arabella
• talking shit to sadness, Sara Brickman

• rain in dry earth
• vanilla
• Lush products
• daisies
• lavender
• chai
• ginger
• sweet smells
• cinnamon
• mornings
• sea
• fresh smells

• Fire cracking
• Purr
• Rain
• Wind in trees
• Steps
• Sea
• Water running

• rainy days listen music while sitting in my table drinking tea reading a book
• sunbathing
• feeling nostalgic
• planning my future
• feeling loved
• feeling productive
• feeling calm while hanging with my friends
• feeling adventurous
• staying home watching movies
• kissing
• waiting in the airport to go home
• traveling

• dye my hair
• search for new artists
• visit museums
• go for a walk
• play with animals
• do makeup
• drink tea
• watch candles burn
• observe nature
• study biology
• read on my table next to my balcony
• listen old vinyls
• dance, sing and act
• watch and do plays
• travel

• Harley Quinn (Batman series) - she has been in an abusive relationship for years and she was strong enough to leave him
• Alice (Tim Burton's version) - decided to go on with her father's plans even with everyone judging her for being an independent woman
• Margaret Keane - spent 10 years of her life painting for an abusive husband who was actually sick
• Paris Jackson - tried to commit suicide and have to deal with haters yet but she still here
• Joan Jett - she was part of The Runaways and when no one accepted her single album she oppened her own record company
• Poly Styrene - left home when she was 15 with only £3 and became a big rockstar
• Mrs. Banks (Mary Poppins) - protested for women's votes, even with her husband being against them
• Jo (Little Women) - didn't care about gender roles, she wants to live her own life and if she has to be feminine when she grow up, she don't want to grow up at all

Juno, 4 de agosto de 2001

• pronomes femininos
• bissexual (mas prefiro meninas)
• ovolactovegetariana since 2015
• olhos castanhos/amendoados, agressivamente branca, cabelo cinza e azul
• futura bióloga
• canhota
• eu assusto fácil
• já tive dois dinossauros. foi daora.

juno, 18 ♀ <juno is not my real name>

hazel eyes, pale, blue hair, 165cm

• dyke, photography, literature, poetry, botany, zoology, dinossaurs, nature, art, sci-fi, space odysseys, ocean, vynils, cinematography, theater, grunge, instability

• ride a motorbike
• drove a car
• had my own house
• fired a gun
• made a tattoo
• ride a bike
• went paddling down the street
• been to Europe
• done a road trip
• got married
• done yoga
• had a bank account (non attached to my parents)
• went camping
• been on a diet
• been in a vernissage
• traveled alone
• stayed the whole night in the street
• went to a bar
• went to a movie theater alone
• went to a concert alone

august 4th 2001; 1h14 pm

• sun : leo
• moon : aquarius
• rising : sagitarius
• venus : cancer
• mercury : leo
• mars : sagitarius
• jupiter : cancer
• saturn : gemini
• uranus : aquarius
• neptune : aquarius
• pluto : sagitarius
• chiron : sagitarius
• lilith : aquarius
• node : cancer
• vertex : taurus

< reasons to don't commit suicide and what to do instead >

• don't jump in front of a train, a lot of people will get late if you do it. Get into the train, go home and take a cold shower
• don't cut your wrists, do you want the last scene you will see in your life is you all bloody? Besides, someone will have to clean the mess, so go for a walk in your own house (but stay away from the kitchen)
• don't take a lot of pills, you will probably trow up and it will be gross and unhealthy. Eat or drink water instead.
• don't jump from the top of a building, you can fall in someone's head. Lay in floor and breathe.

stay alive

• Live in another country
• Do a trip every year
• Be a biologist
• Raise kids (don't need to be mine)
• Build a farm house
• Stay healthy and emotionally stable
• Be a funny aunt that teach science
• Be who I am without feeling intimidated
• Be financially independent
• Feel free

• be good - Max Brodie
• murder of birds - Jesca Hoop ft. Guy Gar...
• love me tender - Elvis Presley
• quiet corners and empty spaces - The Jay...
• something good - Alt-J
• lua - Bright Eyes
• trousers - Nina Nesbitt
• Arabella - Arctic Monkeys
• R U mine? - Arctic Monkeys
• Wanted to be loved - Daniel Ahearn
• tonight you belong to me - Eddie Vedder ...
• space oddity - David Bowie
• drive-in Saturday - David Bowie
• love me - Elvis Presley
• black beauty - Lana del Rey
• all you need - Lana del Rey
• wish you were here - Pink Floyd
• yesterday - The Beatles
• habits remix - Tove Lo - Hippie Sabotage...
• happy little pill - Troye Silvan
• west coast - Lana del Rey

< to do every day >

• compliment at least three people
• eat at least two fruits
• read more
• look myself in the mirror
• remember to forgive
• have unusual days
• sing in the shower
• focus on my goals
• save money
• look in the eyes
• try to make someone smile
• say "i love you"
• believe in love
• write or draw my feelings when necessary
• learn a new word
• not be afraid to do what i want
• be thankful for the small things

< take my hand, take my whole life too >

• go to an amusement park
• make you a dinner at my place
• eat ice cream at ben&jerry's
• surprise you with your favourite flower
• take (a lot) of pictures
• play guitar for you
• stare at the stars
• watch old rom-coms
• kiss you at new year
• travel every-fucking-where
• dance to old records
• tell mom about you
• play snooker at a grunge bar

• draw better
• take care of animals and plants
• sing, dance and act at the same time
• play piano and guitar perfectly
• work on my photography skills
• write deep poems
• sew
• tarot, meditation and teology
• spanish, french, german and japanese
• improve my makeup skills

• drive a car
• have at least 4 different funny colours in my hair [4/4]
• try something with weed
• smoke pot
• visit at least 4 countries [1/4]
• live in another state
• live in another country
• have any exotic animal
• drag myself
• go to the California pride parade
• do a DJ/VJ course
• have my own house
• speak a third language

• Van Gogh
• Magritte
• Tara McPherson
• Mark Ryden
• Audrey Kawasaki
• Nicoletta Ceccoli
• Margaret Keane
• Gaudí
• Glenn Barr
• Tim Walker
• Alexander McQueen
• Chuck Grant

• why not if you want to?
• you will make kids believe in magic
• you will make friends
• you will get a lot of smiles
• people will think that you're awesome
• there are so many colours out there, why would you limit yourself so much?

fall :

• see the rain falling
• see the trees without leaves
• read good books with more disposition

winter :

• hot drinks
• spent a time in the bath tub
• have an excuse to bring blankets everywhere
• hug people
• wear boots
• go out without getting tan
• wear pretty coats

spring :

• take pretty photos of flowers that are starting to blossom
• eat berries
• lay in the ground without freezing
• do morning workouts with a little bit of ...