coming up next

• rougarou--koto, lowell, ma- sept
• tunnel vision-- ???- sept

2024 [50]

• metroid metal--magfest- january
• sonnyjim clifford, conor hennessy, jim healey-- model cafe, allston- february
• dance or don't #4--rabbit hole- feb
• cum rave-- o'briens, allston- feb
• vantablack--o'briens, allston - feb
• winter EDM warehouse wonderland-- allston- feb
• leap day band, magnificent danger-- aeronaut somerville - feb
• king bastard, eight foot manchild-- o'briens, allston - marc
• a journey into sound & light--glitch gallery - mar
• louis cole--royale, boston - mar
• emperor nortons, conical cacophany-- the ...

• be kind to public transit workers
  • and be kind to any retail/service worker
• only give genuine compliments
  • and if you can't give a compliment, stay quiet or keep it a constructive criticism
• honesty works
• celebrate every victory, no matter how small
• match energy
• give compliments, they're free!

someday i'll add links

• dirt
  • songs that feel like grime under your fingernails that you just can't get out
• ah..
  • trying to capture the feeling of the perfect exhale into peace
• thumpy scawy
  • you better say it right
  • its bangahs, they're spooky
  • meant to flow well together, good for a party
  • i might retire this and make a new version, my definition of thumpy scawy has changed over the years
• big favs mr. josh
  • BIG

who he is (generally speaking, of course)

• jay, legally jack
• he/him
• ides of march baby
• 28 tender years of age
• artsy fartsy motherfucker

most heavily identify with

• music that makes my brain go brrrr
• passion & excitement
• enthusiasm
• dancing, moving, being free
• bright colors & loud noises
• honesty & love

identifiers (if that's your jam)

• INFP-T
• pisces
• self-proclaimed fuckboy
• chaotic hot

i haven't edited this list since 2020. let me reset real quick: aug 8, 2024:

• war.- whores

jan 28, 2024:

• your queen is a reptile - sons of kemet
• trust in the lifeforce of the deep mystery - the comet is coming
• nightmare vacation - rico nasty
• rated R - queens of the stone age
• disco4:: part ii- HEALTH
• apostrophe(') - frank zappa
• mood valiant - hiatus kaiyote
• lonesome, on'ry and evil - leather lung
• why love now - pissed jeans
• viscerals - pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs

hall of fame off the list but still in my heart

as of 2020:

• master of puppets - metallica

deadass this is just about my wow character i love her alRIGHT

starcaller lament

• goblin
• demonology warlock
• for the horde
• neutral evil
• grinds her teeth in excitement and frustration
• red reD RED!!
• lament prefers the company of jhuuroon bc theyre bros
  • mispronounces jhuuroon's name (her felguard) when she's mad at him
  • she never summons her succubus (selnia) bc gay panic
• fiercely loyal to the horde, especially now after sylvanas' betrayal. she always thought she was playing for the top dollar but realized how personally shocked she ...

• hatsune miku
• ashnikko
• USAO

I CAN FUX WITH THIS will add to it later but

• raistlin- dragonlance series
  • ah... raistlin was a first love of mine. he's a sickly, frail mage with an insatiable quest for power in.. a published, very long, extensive set of books based on someone's d&d campaign. please keep in mind that i did not know this at the time LOL
  • raistlin really was an outcast and he Knew Too Much-- thru his quest for power he ended up half possessed by a wILD wizard ghost and hourglass eyes that let him see people age and die when he looks at them, some emo shit. clearly.
  • i really connected to his quiet observation and offputting demenour. i read these in a period of my life where i was absolutely too weird for my own good and very a...

oh man i had a lot of goals and aspirations up until Depression

• most.majorly i wanted to learn all of yr usual 'band instruments', and go to Berklee to become a band teacher
  • i learned 3 pretty well and can flub my way thru atleast 5 other instruments
• i always wanted to write a book
• for my elementary school year book i listed my future career as 'hippy'
• the jeep
• i dreamed about top surgery alot, in very roundabout ways
• changing my hair easily and on a whim
• i dreamed of losing my hair, getting something new
• fantasized about losing my allergy, eating the foods i'd drooled over

i'm really blessed to have super supportive people in my life who slap me in the face with understanding these are some of the things that have slapped me good

• "you spend so much time worrying about the needs of everyone else, you've never taken a second to ask yourself; what do you want?"
• "i only do the best things for myself, i treat myself like i deserve the world"
• "gender is a performance, and i plan on being booed off the stage"
• "my free time is not my availability"
• WHY NOT NOW?
• 'you don't need to deserve things, it is not a matter of deserving, who decides that? you get what you want, because you want it.'
• self talk is real talk
• if you're not embarrassed by last year you're not making progress
• to fuck around is human, to find out is d...

breaking news!

• honey roasted almonds
• walker's shortbread cookies
• almond meringue
• pirouettes

been thinking about everything i thought i'd never be able to do because of my chest. i haven't actively cosplayed since 2017, when my dad passed away. a lot of what was fun for me about cosplay was drag-- dressing up like a beautiful woman. it gave me a way to love a body that in normal everyday life, made my skin crawl. all of my first cosplay dreams were men. every single one. so here they are, reborn and maybe, retackled.

• hidan naruto shippuden
• soul soul eater
• dave homestuck
• kakashi naruto
• judal magi
• kamina gurren lagaan
• geekboy panty and stocking

• buzz my head
• ✔ more drugs
• have my own fashion line
• ✔ graduate college
• ✔ live
• claim my birthright in iowa
• ✔ find peace

i've become deeply introspective these days and have been thinking a lot about what kind of person i consider myself to be (also an exercise in being kind to myself)

• enthusiastic
• inventive
• omniscient
• crafty
• more determined than i'm inclined to believe
• an extrovert, somehow
• entertaining
• quick to catastrophize
• unfuckwittable
• stronger
• outgoing
• fragile
• sunshine
• empathetic