oh man i had a lot of goals and aspirations up until Depression

• most.majorly i wanted to learn all of yr usual 'band instruments', and go to Berklee to become a band teacher
  • i learned 3 pretty well and can flub my way thru atleast 5 other instruments
• i always wanted to write a book
• for my elementary school year book i listed my future career as 'hippy'
• the jeep
• i dreamed about top surgery alot, in very roundabout ways
• changing my hair easily and on a whim
• i dreamed of losing my hair, getting something new
• fantasized about losing my allergy, eating the foods i'd drooled over