base info

• john, mr. m
• he/him

memories

• i don’t have too much here really
• my name was john. (my last name might’ve been macgillivray but that was the name of this character in my pink canons so i could just be confused)
• i have a strong sensory memory of getting grabbed by the shoulder, spun around, and slapped across the face
• i was gay! but, i was closeted because of Political Climate™. i think i found someone after my wife died
• i served in wwii in some manner. got shot in the knee and it was forever impacted.
  • i have a weird memory of puking into a bucket as it got, like, treated
  • it was the reason i needed my cane. luckily i didn't need it Much but i needed it
  • i also had mental trauma from it. i remember not wanting to serve, but i didn't think i had a choice for some reason??
• i was honestly really meek. most of the reason i was so angry all the time was. long-untreated mental illness
  • corporal punishment was socially acceptable at the time and the only way to get my anger out. i hated doing it so much.
  • my left eye twitched when i got angry. just a bit.
• i had a really bad drinking problem for a while. it started during the war, then was a way to numb pain from my wife, and then... i realized it was getting bad. it took a lot of time to get myself off of it.
  • i only realized how much it ruined me afterward. it was a really bad trigger of mine, haha
• my wife did have a few reasons she considered "legitimate" to come after me. usually it was for staying out too late, but there were... a few others.
  • i usually drank before i got home so i wouldn't remember the beatings actually haha
• my pajamas were too big for me. why do i remember that? Who Knows
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