- my name was pink floyd. i don't remember going by floyd pinkerton or anything like it. i was pink floyd.
- i was 6'2, i think? i had some godawful growth spurt somewhere along the line.
- fun fact this is my only cishet kin (i plan to keep it that way)
- i had a very bad destructive streak, both of myself and others. i'm not sure when it started, but it existed, haha
- i was. Debilitatingly mentally ill. bipolar 1 with psychotic episodes (manic/depressive swings + psychotic hallucinations); dissociative identity disorder (system listed here); possibly another dissociative disorder (all i know is i lost a lot of time); post-traumatic stress disorder; some fucked-up version of an eating disorder; and, along with these, i also got chronic headaches, my ears rang, and i was mostly deaf.
- the dissociation and hearing loss would kinda make me... go numb? like i would lose a lot of grip on a lot of things, and i would honestly commonly get worried that i couldn't feel anymore. so i had a few hobbies to stimulate the senses. some include:
- standing outside in the cold weather to have a smoke
- shaving without using too much shaving cream (or any at all, sometimes)
- eventually, self harm (usually by burning myself with the end of a cigarette)
- and a few other things i really shouldn't discuss.
- i also didn't eat a lot. i don't know why. i was just never hungry.
- i did a lot of heroin in combination with the fact that i smoked.
- in some images, i can be seen with a red ribbon tied around my leg; this was a tourniquet made into fashion.
- i was a musician myself. songwriter, lead guitarist, and bassist by hobby.
- i was an act called "pink floyd and the surrogate band." the band was always a set band (i was technically solo), but they were always dressed in the same costumes. imagine the surrogate band from the real wall concerts, with the masks from the abitw2 sequence.
- i was always very harsh to the set band members. if they moved a muscle out of turn they'd get barked at. behind the scenes, of course.
- in fact, a lot of songs off the wall were based on my own.
- young lust was a big one. this had a music video. it aired once and got censored on television. (ha!)
- parts 1, 2, and 3 of another brick in the wall were poems. i don't remember if they were a song, but they were mine.
- i also started the development of comfortably numb. all it was was a demo and a few words written down. i remember getting the bassline while dissociating and trying to play money.
- speaking of that, i wrote money too hehe
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