- i will write in my notebook as much as i can using black ink pens that glide like paint onto the pages
- i will go to bed at reasonable times to save myself the sorrows of waking up late or waking up and drinking coffee which rumbles in my stomach like acid for the rest of the day
- sometimes i will move before work, like i have been lately. set an alarm and walk around at seven in the morning. sometimes i'll even run around. there's nobody out at that time so it's safe.
- i will give myself 5-10 minutes of steaming hot shower water each day and exfoliate until everything bad leaves. i will love and care for my pores and leave them alone.
- i will read two novels each week for the entirety of the summer. they don't have to be tolstoy, it's okay to take a break.
- i can have a cigarette every now and then, if it's sunny and i have a place to sit and enjoy it.
- i will sit on my floor and meditate every single day. i will sit because i want to be connected to more of myself. i will sit because i want to take the violence out of the way that i speak and think.
- i will not hate my body. i will accept the things i cannot change and love the things that i am happy about extra hard. i will try so hard to love it. i will eat whatever i want and love my body, and i won't think of my body as the consequence of a bad diet. i will just love it. this is the hardest task on this list.
- i will keep anger and aggression out of my body. i am not a cavity for hate and violence, i am a river and i will let it drain out of me completely.
- i will remember that i cannot change anyone around me any more than i already have, and i will accept them as they are. i will understand that i am not like other people, and will not hold anyone up to any standards. i will not judge anyone else if i would not see fit for them to judge me similarly.
- i will enjoy my body, i will tattoo it and reveal it and swim in the ocean with it whenever i please.
- i will give parts of myself to strangers who need me, and commit to helping in this crazy world. i will stand with self-identified women and help those less fortunate than myself.
- i will love my family. i'll love my sister for her heart and her humor. i will love my mom for her spirit and her passion. dad for his mind and devotion. i will love my friends. jayde for those moments when we talk and i feel so close to her. veronica for her honesty and for confiding in me. sonja for her bravery and her light.
- i will stay passionate. about everything.
- buffy is good for the soul, and i can indulge whenever i want.
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