i got up at 3am this morning and started binge-eating a whole packet of doritos like it was nobody's business. damn it. i wasn't even aware of it until i woke up and saw the packet on the floor.

i think i've got most of my ordering and checklist done. this was my checklist for the weekend:

• do christmas cards.
  • i bought a pack at first then opened them very much later on, only to realise they were super crappy ones. so i had to buy some more yesterday and i'll start on them later.
• finish photobook.
  • this is going to take me forever. can't find the motivation. will save it for the next two nights before perth.
• buy claudia a present and say goodbye.
  • since i decided to quit tumblr, i...feel too guilty to do this. i might just. not. i feel heartless in doing so but i'm just not going to do it. i'm done with friendships. not cut out for them. sorry self.
• notebooks. sort.
  • made progress on this. i've realised that even if i lock them up in my bottom drawer, you can still access them if you pull out the other three drawers on top. which is fucked and defeats the purpose of the locked part. so. i've asked ali if i can bring some personal things over to keep at hers and she said yes. yay! this will be a part of that.
• ✔ recount toiletries.
• ✔ give fleur christmas present early.
  • I PLAN TO DO SO LATER TODAY!
• get ali a present.
  • i don't know what to get her yet. shiiiiiiiit. ;-;
• talk to naomi. $600 + opal?
  • I TOLD HER I'D SPEAK TO HER LATER ON, ON FRIDAY, AND NOW IT'S SUNDAY AND FUCK I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
• ✔ do one load of washing.
• throw out flowers.
  • will do later on when i take out all the trash. they're gross.

so yep. it's okay i guess.

also:

• ✔ wrap presents.
  • tried and failed. they're horrible but they'll do!
• ✔ buy some credits in advance for perth.
• ✔ sort out photos on phone.

i've also decided once and for all that i'm not bringing my laptop with me to perth. that breaks my heart, but when i think of maybe losing it while travelling or...leaving it somewhere...or someone else being to access it. seriously, fuck that. i'm too OCD to allow that to happen. so it's best to take it to ali's.

what else.............

i believe that's it. i've kind of started on my packing but i'm still a little too afraid for some reason (?) to start sorting clothes. that can wait. but i've got everything else ready (toiletries, books to read, meds, etc.) and.... i have to admit, the reality that i'm getting on a PLANE is starting to loom over me. and it's a bit scary. yikes. but i think it's only because it's another ~first~ for me. i'm not scared of the heights or anything bad happening while onboard. i'm just a mess lol, don't mind me.

AND GOING SHOPPING FOR SNEAKERS SOON! toodles. :D