11/12/14

• no; november is full of lies and deceit; full of "i'm fine, don't worry about me"; full of "he misses you" and then seeing him happy with other people; full of "i'll be here" then leaving quickly; no, fuck you; do not make me a second choice motherfucker; go fuck with someone else.

11/19/14

• i hugged him goodbye for the last time; "is everything alright?" he asked; "i missed you." I said; goodbye. i am grieving but you must go; i know when i am not needed; i feel that you don't; please don't talk to me ever again; please don't exist.

11/25/14

• i'm lost; i think i know where i want to be, but the thing is, i don't know if im in the right path with the right people; she left me for good; z, left; it's too painful to think about; november is not hopeful, no no, it's not; it's pain disguised as missed chats and failing faiths; i hate this; i am lost and alone; i need someone; anyone, please.