• 09/11/14

menthol and pain; sniggers and playful smiles; skinny ankles and rugged face; "i'm preparing for the future properly, because i can see that i have one, and i have to do things right"; with me love? or what?; waiting, waiting, just waiting; patiently waiting; patiently trusting; yes, i do; i can wait.

• 09/13/14

humid september air; slight drizzle, foggy windows; receding puddles; "free memories guys"; homecoming for those who left; old faces, new things to say; "you got thinner"; is that all you can say? bs; j, no; i'm sorry, i really am; you were never there; i am your convenience, i am a consoling being that you have been manipulating; i am sorry but i can't be those anymore; i know better now; i should have known better long before; i apologise to myself; sorry for letting you struggle; i'm sorry you had to spend time with someone who does not value you; i should have known better and told you the truth; i'm sorry.

• 09/17/14

too much syrup. "mahal ko or mahal ako?" mahal ako, definitely. i'm sorry c, i feel really bad for rejecting in the first place; is that why we still can't see eye to eye?; or is there something else i have not explained yet; tell me; because if you don't i will never know; so say something please; the smell of cigarettes; "shhh" she says. alright dear; i won't tell.

• 09/21/14

CORPUS; poems and heart-wrenching songs; slow waltz behind the stage curtains; perfume, sweat and fear in the air; helium balloons; carpe the FUCKING diem; no man, fuck you; no, i'm not entirely mad at you; your presence irks me, that's all; z is letting go; i can feel her slipping away; the friendzone poem; k looked cute as always; c's broad shoulders; look at me, look at me properly; dance with me with the lights on, love.

• 09/26/14

heavy rain; the smell of a fresh shirt; jumping over puddles, and stepping into them too; the opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference; hmmm indifference; pizza and laughter; c and his attempts; i noticed, and thank you anyway. but j, you made my day.