last updated: may 13, 2019

• apophasis | movieverse, post-catws, depression, mind control, anxiety, panic attacks

bucky thought he was done with being used as a weapon against his will. turns out he was wrong about that.

he also thought he was pretty much done unpacking the emotional baggage left behind from years of trauma. well, he was wrong about that too.

• bucky barnes: intelligence nerd | avengers au, friends to lovers, fake marriage, nc-17, on going

how bucky barnes accidently became an avenger and married steve rogers. or some shit like that.

• five times steve scared the ever-living shit out of bucky, and the one time bucky finally did something about it | movieverse, first kiss

steve smiles against him, still getting his kicks with the whole thing. because he might be a truly wonderful person, but he can also be a little shit if he wants to be.

“never fucking do that to me again,” bucky says, but it lacks venom.

“i won’t.” steve says.

but bucky knows he will because he’s steve.'

or: whether he's doing it on purpose or not, steve consistently scares the crap out of bucky, who is already trying to deal with his looming feelings for the little punk. it's giving him gray hair.

• looking after a diamond | movieverse, canon divergence, post-catws, fluff, nc-17

five times steve rogers doesn’t need a guard dog (and one time...)

• love came and told me i shouldn't sleep | comicverse, angst, depression, civilwar!spoilers

an account of every kiss steve rogers has ever given or received. or maybe only the ones he remembers.

either way, five hundred doesn't seem like much.

• tell me i'm your national anthem | movieverse au, wintersoldier!steve, captainamerica!bucky

steve rogers falls from a speeding train and bucky barnes is left to carry the mantle and the shield. in the twenty-first century, the winter soldier is brought in from the cold and there can be no redemption.

• the fallen son | catws-verse, media fic

captain america 3: the fallen son is a 2016 american superhero film based on the marvel comics character captain america, produced by marvel studios and distributed by paramount pictures.

• the spin i'm in | pinning, friends to lovers

five times bucky kissed steve because of ~reasons~, and one time steve finally believed he really meant it.

• three men in a vw | civil war missing scene, fluff

steve steps back into the car and closes the door, lips still tingling.

“you don’t like blondes,” bucky says.

sam chokes.

• united states v. barnes, 617 f. supp. 2d 143 (d.d.c. 2015) | movieverse, courtroom drama, media fic

winter soldier set to stand trial for washington d.c. massacre and treason.

• wherever we're opened, we're red | movieverse, hurt, angst

steve swallows hard, or tries to; his throat’s too damned tight.

“you,” and steve’s hands are brands, are vises against the wound where it’s spilling, where bucky ran and leapt where steve hadn’t even thought to look, where it’s bucky’s body that’s failing, bucky’s artery that’s leaking too fast to rightly heal, and it should’ve been steve.

it should have been steve.